Safety Town

I've been wanting to write a blog like every day this week and just haven't sat down and committed to it. Life has been amazing this week. Not that it's not amazing every week. But wow, it's so good this week! Mikhail is going to Safety Town every day this week from 12-3. He absolutely loves it. I love spending all my time with him. But with him having fun at school, I get to spend some quality time with Ken and the Babies too. The other day the babies were sleeping and I had Kenny in my room and I was doing here hair and then I painted her nails and she just felt so special..it made me feel good. After I painted her nails, she wanted to paint mine..and I let her. She told me she never did that before..lol which she's right..the last time she used nail polish she painted her own nails/fingers. But she told me she needed to practice for when she's a mommy like me some day :) aww that melted my heart! She also said it was a good thing daddy wasn't home to see her doing it because he wouldn't be happy about it! She's a silly thing! Yesterday while he was in school, we went shopping and we went to the smoothie king and had a fit n crunchy bowl together which was super yummy. I just loved spending some one on one time with her. She would be a great only child. When it's just her, she never cries or throws a fit or is braty. I love having four kids..but I think Makenna was meant to be an only child! Today we woke up to a flat tire on the van. Tim had to go to court for a speeding ticket...and I didn't want Mikhail to miss Safety Town..either did he. So he rode his bike and I pushed the babies..Tim took Ken with him to court because there was no way she woulda made that walk! It was really hot and it was 3.48 miles one way..so Mikhail did that on his bike! He didn't complain once. He actually told me it was a lot of fun :) And when I picked him up [with the car] he asked if he could ride his bike home again! LoL goof ball. I did about 7 miles straight with the twins though. By the time I got home..I thought I was going to die. But honestly..it felt really good. I would love to do some long walks like that some more. It feels good to be losing weight and loving the way I look! It's been a while since I felt that. Hee hee we stopped at CVS to get Mikhail and the babes a drink...and he saw these silly bands that he just had to have..and he said that everyone on his tball team had them..and it just hit me, like my little boy is growing up! He's already at the, these are the cool thing stage, gotta have them. Wierd! These last 5 years have gone by in a flash..I hope the rest slow down a bit. Anyways, I'm super tired..so I better dip..laterzzz

growing up

The days seem to be flying by so fast lately! I just had my birthday two days ago! I'm 25! It's crazy..I feel like I just turned 21 the other day..and four years have passed :( I wish time would slow down a little. My babies are getting ready to be 2. It's so hard for me to actually admit to myself that I will never have another baby. I was going through the kids old clothes the other day and I was almost in tears when I saw the outfits the twins used to wear and how they used to be sooo big on them..or remember Mikhail and Makenna in their baby clothes and now they are four and five! I told Tim I was so sad and he said they have to grow up someday..we have to stop having kids someday. And I know he's right, but that doesn't change how I feel :( And the arguement that it gets easier the older they get doesn't really apply to me right now. Last summer was so much easier. The twins weren't walking so they would just sit in the stroller while we went places..bottles made everything better, and there were multiple naps a day. Now they are walking everywhere, they cry when we go anywhere, they rarely nap, and they want to eat allllll the time. It's just a lot more complicated this summer. I love seeing them explore new things and watching the grow. But the thought that before I know it they are going to be in school makes me sad.

Max is so sweet :) While I was sitting her typing he got up and gave Mady a bink :) He's really sweet! He is really good at sharing. Yesterday he was sooo rotten though. I came home from the pool with the big kids and I heard him SCREAMING in his room. Tim said that every time he went to get him out, Max was sitting right behind the door and everytime Tim would open it Maddox would slam the door shut. So I thought for sure that if I went up he would open the door for me..but nope! I had to sneak in past him, and when I did..he was SO mad. He hit me and threw an even bigger fit. Finally I convinced him to come out and he was fine. But lately little man has had such a big attitude!

The pool was soooo much fun with the big kids yesterday! That's how I'm going to have to take them to do things this summer..when Tim's home and is able to watch the babies I'll be able to take them out to do big kid things. But Mikhail was jumping in with NO floats! He was going under to get toys and swimming. I was so shocked! I'm so proud of him! He's such a little water bug :) Makenna is the exact opposite lol. Of course ;) She won't get her hair wet. She plays on the stairs. But she has fun and that's all that matters.

oopps just looked at the clock and it's time to get Mack ready for his tball game! More laters :)

update :)

So summer is definately not going to go as planned. Last year I was out and about all the time. Last year..the twins were NOT walking! This summer is going to be hard for the big kids. They are already crying that we don't ever go any where. And it's going to be very hard to go anywhere with the twins this summer. Maddox gave me a BIG scare at Creekside today. The kid is just so wild. He's always trying to hang on the bridge or climb something dangerous. He's like four children in one..he really is. I'm going to have to figure this out. I don't want a boring summer..I just want a SAFE summer though! We'll see!

Lately Max has been the cutest and most rotten little stinker ever! On one hand, every time he hears Mady cry he gives her a bink. Tim and I were laughing today because they remember where they are. Every time he hears her cry he just runs and gets one and then gives it to her, and then he claps because he knows it was sweet of him. Mady will clap too :) It's the cutest thing ever! And lately he's been stealing kisses from her! I want to get one on tape sooo bad! But they are always out of no where. At first it was him kissing her, but now she'll kiss back, so it's so sweet! I was getting sad because they were so lovey when they were new borns, always holding hands and snugglin..and it seemed like they were never going to be like that again. But now they are kissing and hugging on each other..it melts a Mama's heart!

He's rotten becauseeee he NEVER goes to sleep when he's supposed to. The kid won't take a nap for nothing..as soon as I walk out of the room he scales out of his pack n play like he's jackie chan :/ And at night he just screams and screams..and then he gets up in the middle of the night. That's super rough too. Last night Tim went out with his cousins..the babies were alseep, and the big kids were sleeping in my bed. I was just going to leave them there and I crawled into bed with them. When Tim got home, he put them in thier own beds and just left their doors open [because the ac is broke] but in the middle of the night I just happened to radomly wake up and Max was standing in the hall way cuddling a big blanket. He could have fallen down the stairs..I was so mad Tim didn't put up the baby gate. I sware the kid is accident prone. And then he came into my bed and kicked and hit and poked and pinched me all night long. I hardly got any sleep. And whenever he's super rotten, he kisses me..which just totally melts my heart...so I can't ever be mad about it. LOL Tim and I were laughing that he's our little Chucky doll..he's so sweet and innocent...until he moves! bahahaha! I love him bunches..but he drives me insane!

We got Madelyn and pair of Stride Rites today, and she's been walking all over the place in them :) I thought I would hate them, but I think she looks really cute in them :) She's got little chunker legs and it's adorable. Tim took the big kids to go visit thier Uncle Bryan and family, and Max actually went to sleep..so it's just been me and her. We took her grocery cart and baby doll outside and she pushed it all the way down the side walk and back! With out falling too! I'm SO proud of her! No matter what any one says about her walking, she's my tough babe :) The whole time I was pregnant with the Chubs, Max was on top of her. She held them in until she couldn't any more, and they were born so healthy! I don't mind if she needs help walking! She's so healthy, and so sweet and so strong. She's my perfect baby girl!

Speaking of perfect baby girls...my other perfect princess is amazing too! She's been so sweet talking to Jesus all the time <3 She still has her temper tantrums and can be rotten. But she's a sweet heart. I love watching her and Mikhail play. They both have amazing imaginations. And she is so absolutely beautiful! She's going to start dance class in July and I can't wait. She's my baby doll!

Mikhail is almost done with Tball. He wants to do every sport. He really wants to see the new karate kid that's coming out, and I think we are going to do karate after tball. He's so athletic just like his dad! When we were getting Mady her new shoes, Mikhail saw some that he loved..and we were talking about bringing him back for back to school shopping..and I couldn't beleive we were actually saying that. I really don't know what I'll think when my little guy starts school full time. I'll probably cry :(

Sable Girl

Tues was a really rough day for our family :( We had to go over to my Mom and Dad's and say goodbye to our childhood dog Sable. Our whole family including my kids, right down to the twins loved her so much! Every time we would go over to visit my parents, she would be hanging out on the front pourch and the kids would always run up and yell, 'Bizzle' and they would give her lots of lovins. They would always beg Mimi's to give her treats. Sable was the reason for lots of laughs and giggles. The babies loved to climb all over her and she let them. She never once nipped at them. They used to laugh and laugh at her. They really loved her too! I remember every time I would bring a new baby over to Mom's house, Sable would be so curious. She would always want to know all about the babies, and she would be very mothering and protective. If they were sitting in thier car seat, she would be right there watching over them. It was almost like she knew there was a baby in there and she had to protect them. She was a great dog!

She was getting very sick though. Tuesday she wouldn't eat or drink, she could barely even stand up. It was hard to watch her suffer like that. I hate putting dogs to sleep..but my heart was aching over her suffering. So we took the kids over Tuesday to let them love on her one last time. Mikhail and Makenna understand Heaven and that's where Sable would be going. I definately thank God for giving them that understanding that everything is ok. They made me cry so many times. Makenna kept telling me she didn't want Sable to die. And right before we left she blew her a kiss that I got a picture of :( And Mikhail told me he 'knew Sable all of his days'. I swear for being such little people, they have such big understandings of the world around them. That night we said prayers for Sable, and the kids told God how much they love her and asked him to watch over her. Mikhail said that the 'human Angels got a new pet' And they talked about how Sable would be playing with Buster and Dr. Ryan :) They are so sweet! Sable was put to rest on Wed. Mom and Brian took her. I couldn't do it. I felt like a coward for not going, but I just knew it was something my heart couldn't handle. They said the dr. gave her a shot to help her relax and she fell asleep, snoring and all..and then they put her to sleep. Mom said she just looked so peaceful like she was sleeping. I miss her so much. I will miss the sound of the kids running up the drive way calling for her and laughing. But I'm glad she's not hurting anymore. Mom had her cremated. But the kids really want to make her a grave so they can still talk to her. So we are going to decorate garden stones for her and Buster. The kids still talk to Sable. They know that she's in Heaven and that she can hear them :) They tell her they love her atleast once a day. Mikhail told us that she would wait for him up there, that someday when he was old he would go up there and play with her :) So they are helping me to feel better about it too.