I'm taking on another project :P This one more useful then the past of course. We were using the fourth bedroom in the basement to store stuff..and I've decided to start going through our boxes and getting rid of things we don't need and don't use. I'd like to turn that room into a play room for the big kids. Lately the big kids have been playing in thier room more and have been playing by themselves away from the babies. I don't want there to be a big speration between big kids and babies..but I understand the big kids are starting to like things that are just to big for the babies. For Christmas Mikhail asked for legos, which babies will just swallow and loose. Makenna wants a doll house and I just don't want the babies to wreck that. Plus the big kids are really into art and they need a place to be creative and hang thier art work with out the babies stealing thier stuff and loosing it all over the house. There's a really nice table downt there right now that they can use to do art on and I have storeage shelves for them already. The rest of the room will be really nice for Mikhail to do legos and and for Makenna's doll house we are going to get her for Christmas. I was also thinking it would be nice, if it's possible to put the tv down there for them to be able to play the wii on it. There's a lot more games for little kids on the wii then there is on Tim's xbox 360. Anyways, I had just taken a short break from cleaning and I'm going to get back to it..more later :P

Welp, I'm offically a Senior at school. Doesn't really mean the same thing as when you're a senior at a university..but it also doesn't cost as much ;) Today was my second day as a senior. It wasn't quiet as exciting as my first day. I was just at the table pretending to be busy...when I was really just being tired and lazy..and Ms. Nixon came by and told me I had my first facial. I'm not going to lie, I was scared to death. I litterally thought I might get sick. I completely forgot how to do anything. It was all ok though. My client was so nice. Even though I forgot a lot of stuff, I'm pretty sure I did well. She gave me a five dollar tip and most imprortantly she rebooked with me! Her rebooking with me in December was the biggest compliment. It was such a great expierence for working on my first person. I know there's still so much more for me to learn. I still have so many more first expierences at the spa school...and I know I'm going to be nervous for a while and I can't wait for the day when that passes and I just feel so confident doing services that there's no nervousness.

The only thing I really can't stand about the school is that you basically stop learning after juniors, and you don't learn enough in juniors to get you through. I feel like there's a lot of stuff I have to teach my self and learn on my own. When I go into school, we basically sit at a table and do nothing the whole time unless we choose to. But I have faith in my self that I will excel at this. I feel like I have the drive and the determination. It was definately a big compliment when my first client told me I was in the right feild of work and that I was good at it :)

I still don't know where our future is going to take us. I don't know what I'm going to do once I'm out of school. I'd really like to work in a spa. I'm definately thinking about interning and hopefully that will land me a job. I think the best way to learn is by watching and working. For so long I've only seen Tim and I's life in Gahanna..but I'm starting to see that eventually were are going to travel outside of this bubble and we are going to explore life outside of gahanna. I know this blog is taking a different turn..but that's kind of just how I write my blogs. But Gahanna is becoming everything I despise in towns. I can't wait to get out of here. This used to be a little town and it used to be personable. I feel like they have expanded so large. I don't want my kids growing up just being a number and a statistic in the school system. I want them to be a name and a person and I want a teacher to see the potential in them. I definately want the small town school and life experience for my family and I. I was talking to a girl in class today and she lived out in the country and we talked about the dirt bikes and four wheelers..and there's just a whole nother life to expierence outside of the city life and that's what I want to expierence.

I'm really stressed out tonight and need a little blog therapy before I go to bed. I had applied for Title 20 to help me out with daycare. It's $242 a week per kid..and since I have four kids..that's about 4 grand a month..insane. I don't know who can afford to pay that? I just feel like with out day care I'll never be able to work or go to school. Tim's job is so physically demanding, I can't expect him to take care of the kids as soon as he gets home so I can go work or go to school. I can't believe they waited to tell me I wasn't going to have daycare until like four days before my full time school schedule started :( I just feel like things are really hard right now. I had Mady and Max in a good routine at thier daycare. They really liked thier teachers and they had friends..and now they might now have a spot in daycare by the time I get everything approved. I just really want to get out of this rut that I'm in right now. It's so hard because I'm only 25 and I feel like the things I deal with and go through on a daily basis are things that people in their 40s deal with..not 25 year olds. I wouldn't trade my kids or my husband for anything..I just wish there weren't the struggles sometimes. I feel like I know there will be a light at the end of the tunnle I just want to see it sometime soon.