It's really weird that my life is changing so much. I always thought that I wouldn't be a career drivin person..but that's exactly what I'm turning into. I am currently going to the spa school for esthetics. My goal in joining the program was that I'd be able to work at a Medi Spa, but now I'm realizing I'm going to need some kind of nursing degree to achieve that. Tomorrow I'm going to go to Columbus State and see what they have to offer as far as a nursing program goes. Everyone is saying that the waiting list is really long, it's kind of discouraging. I'm going to do it anyways. I'm still so younge, even though sometimes I feel so old. I'm only 25. I've accomplished so much in my short 25 years, I think I can do a lot more. I've had four kids, I have a marriage, I've had my ups and downs. Unfortunately right out of high school I didn't go straight into school mode, I started a family first. I think that in a way is against me in my planning. But really my kids will be in school when I start my career, and that will be a bonus. Child care won't be as expensive. Tim is also finishing up his degree. It would be nice for us both to have well paying jobs. I'm really lucky too to have all the support I do. Tim is ver supportive and so are my parents. I've always been such a planner so it's nice to sort of plan the next few years of my life. I have totally loved being a stay at home mom as long as I did. But there are always new chapters and new parts of life to be explored and that's where I'm at right now. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a cross road and there's so many paths I can take..it's a little scary to choose one, but I know I have to trust my heart and go with the one that feels right. Right now it feels right to talk to CSCC :)

On a whole nother note, my kids are changing so much! Mady and Max are talking a lot and they are following directions a lot better. It's so amazing to see how they are changing so much. Maddox is absolutely inlove with Santa. Everytime he sees him he gets so excited! He tries to say, 'ho ho ho' and he knows that Santa gives him presents. It's so cute :) Mady gets excited about Santa too..but when it comes time to see him she freaks out. Mikhail and Makenna can't wait for Christmas. I defiantely want to amke sure that we talk about the true meaning of Christmas with them. But I can't help but to be excited about thier presents. We don't buy them toys very often since they have so many..I really get excited for the excuses to buy them presents!

Max has to go to the doctor tomorrow to check on his ear infections. I think the poor kid just always has them and is going to be getting tubes soon :( I'm scared to think about him getting tubes..but I hate the thought of him being in pain over ear infections :(

Anyways, I try to keep up on the blogs, but a lot of times I fall behind.

The kids are doing amazing. Mikhail is learning SO much! I'm able to sound out a word for him and he's able to spell it for me! He's so smart <3 Makenna is a great daner! She loves ballet and I just love taking her! She's such a sweet and smart little girl. She's really doing well with daycare too! She has a lot of friends there. She even has her first boyfriend Gannon :) She told me that Gannon wants to marry her and one day I went to drop Makenna off and he came running across the room to hug her! I was like WOW, if she's only four and already doing this..imagine 10 years in the future..aye yae yae

Mady & Max have aweful dry sking. Max more than Mady. The doctors tell me to put vasaline on it and hydrocortizone cream, but I don't think it's helping. I'm going to start looking towards some home remidies to try and help them. Today I gave them a bath and let them soak in an Aveno bath soak for dry skin. Max has been crying a lot lately at bath time, and I don't know if it's because it hurts or because he doesn't like the bath..but today he didn't cry :) I wrapped them up in hooded bath towels and they cuddled me like they were still my little babies :) I loved it so much and I just cherished it. They have grown so much, but they are still my babies. It's funny when we go to the day care they see the babies, and they get down and they make little baby noises at the babies..but they are really almost the same size. They are too cute

Teaching the kids organics (:

Today was my day off of school for the week. It really feels weird to be committed to the school four days a week. It really makes the week go really fast! Fridays are awesome days. They are my days to catch up on everything I need to catch up on. Today I was supposed to read a story to Mikhail's class about Christmas. I went to the book store and made sure to pick one out that would tell the real reason of Christmas, Jesus's birth! Of course Mikhail woke up throwing up this morning and he just couldn't go to school. I feel really bad, and I hope the teacher will let me reschedule. Today Mikhail and I just spent the day cleaning up. We had a good day together. Tonight Tim went to practice martial arts to start getting active, and I had a spa night with the kids. Makenna and I had a Mayo & Avacodo hair mask to help with our dry hair. Then we made a face mask with egg, honey, and lavender essential oil that Mikhail, Makenna & I all put on. It was fun and great time together! One reason I decided to go to The Spa School was so that I'd be able to teach the kids good skin care habits. It's fun, even though they are only four and five years old..but it's awesome bonding time. I like teaching them things, and this is definately something I am passionate about. Tonight I told her about make 'organic' products..because she thinks everything should come from the store. I want her to understand the benifits of making your own products and what they do for you. I want to teach all of my kids that. I think the twins are a little too young right now, but Mikhail and Makenna are very into it! It's so fun :)

ohh my..today is only wed. and I'm competely exhausted by this week already! Thankfully there's only one more day left in my school week and then I have a three day weekend with the family :) There's lots of fun Christmas themed things going on this weekend, so I fully plan to spend lots of quality time with them :)

School is going really well. The first week got off to a rough start. I came in every day and played on my computer and didn't do anything. Now I'm really starting to do student services and I'm also doing a lot of research and learning makeup and natural remidies. I'm trying to learn more about the basics of skin care, because I think that's important to understand the more complex parts of it. Unfortunately the hours I go to school are the hours people are working, so I don't get a lot of clients coming in. Today I did a brown and lash tinting which I was really excited about! I also have been doing basic facials, and I feel pretty confident about them. Tomorrow I'm going to focus more on deep pores. It feels really good to be learning and really apply myself to what I'm doing.

It's a little rough part which I know I just have to suck it up and learn to play the game..I can't stand how caddy and petty some girls are. There are a lot of girls that I absolutely love there..but there are some that just make me cringe. I guess it's all just how we were brought up and we all have different back grounds..and that's how it's going to be wherever I go..but it's really frustrating some days. Today was one of those days. Tim and I talk a lot about how we want to raise the kids and how we plan to deal with things financially..and it's annoying to hear people critize that. We have four kids all within three years..so to say that we are going to pay for thier college is unrealistic. I will however always provide housing and transportation and food ect..I don't want them to worry about that..just thier education. But then people are like how are you going to bring four kids into this world and not pay for thier college. I think that's rude. I love my kids and I will do anything for them. I will instill in them that thier education is very important...BUT you have to think realistically..and I won't be able to afford to send all of my kids to school on my dime. Anyways, it's a part of school that annoys me..but for the most part I look forward to going. I'm excited about learning new things every day..and I am making new friends which is awesome :)

Today was December fist and it was the first day it snowed! The kids were amazed! They ran to the door and they were chanting that it was snowing, and Makenna said, 'it's Christmas!' I love their little minds :) Last year the babies were too little last year to like the snow..but today ahhh I wish I could have caught thier expression on camera. Maddox was twrilling around with his hands in the air and just laughing and running through the snow and Mady was compeletely amazed. It's going to be a really fun winter with them. Last year when it snowed I put them in thier high chair and brought snow inside for them to play with..this year they'll be able to tromp through it..it's going to be a blast! They still really aren't talking, but they both were trying to say, 'snow' which sounded more like 'nooo' it was cute though :) It was still snowing tonight, so maybe when we wake up in the morning it will have stuck to the ground and I can see thier excitement again. They are really amazed with Christmas lights and they keep pointing to Santa statues and they get excited..I love it! I'm hoping this will be the best Christmas ever!

I just took a break from the blog to talk to Tim about the kids..and it just makes my heart melt talking about how amazing they are and how much we love them :) Makenna's school was teaching her about occupations and she said she wanted to be in the marching band like mommy when she grows up. Mikhail said he wants to be in construction like Daddy :) I love how they love us. They are really amazing little kids! Anyways..it's getting late and I have class again in the morning..so I'll write more tomorrow