I used to..

I used to blog all the time. I think about it from time to time and say, 'later I'm going to blog about this' and I never do :/ I need to change that! I don't know if any one ever even reads them anymore..but I really love going back and rereading them myself. Anyways, so the catch up blog..

Maddox and Madleyn are sleeping in big kid beds now! We didn't even do the toddler bed..they just went straight to big kid beds. Mady did so well with it. I love going in to check on her. She's always curled up on her pillow and covered up with her silky. She never really tosses and turns. She looks so peaceful when she sleeps! Max on the other hand never wants to sleep. It's always a battle with him. I've learned that I just have to put him in his bed and shut the door and let him cry if he's ever going to go to sleep. He always gets out of bed and lays right behind the door and the second I open it to check on him..I bump into him and wake him up...smart little booger! But he makes it pretty impossible to put Mikhail in there..so the poor kid pretty much just sleeps on the floor in our room every night. I'm thinking about setting up a twin bed in there so he can sleep on that. I can transfer Makenna to her room with no problem..but poor Mikhail! Max is freaking halarious. He's figured out that if he gets really low to the floor he can look underneath the door to see what I'm doing. So anytime I go downstairs to do laundry, he lays down right behind the door and watches and cries for me to come up the stairs! I think he also does that when I lay him down to go to sleep.

The babies are getting so smart! Anytime I tell them to do something the turn right around and do it. They aren't really talking much..but thier ability to follow directions shows me they are learning. I know they will talk on thier own time..so I don't get upset about it. They are my babies..I probably baby them a little too much and that's why they don't talk..but that's ok. I'm in no hurry for them to grow up on me!

Haha so of course..I'm writing about what a good little sleeper Mady Jae is..and the tv gets quiet for a minute and I hear her crying. I went up there and she had been sleeping on the floor and must have woke up. She was still pretty out of it..but she just wanted back in her bed :)

Anyways, Tim taught Mady to say, "uh oh" and it's the cutest thing ever! She really makes her mouth in the O shape to say it and she puts her little hand out to do it! This past Saturday Mom and Dad took the big kids camping so we just had the twins. We went shopping and out to eat..and Mady just kept putting on a show for Tim..she was saying uh oh all weekend. We went and visited Tim's grandma and she just loved seeing the babies. I feel bad that we don't get over to see our grandparents as often as we should..I just feel like there's never enough hours in the day. I feel like just as soon as we wake up it's time to start getting ready to go back to bed.

Mikhail is getting really excited about going to school at the end of the month. I really can't believe it's almost that time. I was talking to the parents in Makenna's dance class and they thought I was crazy when I said that I would actually like to have two more babies. I feel like mine are growing up so fast that I'm really going to miss this time in my life. Life is changing so drastically for us..and I'm not ready for it. Mikhail going to school..it's sad for me. I'm going to miss all of our adventures during the week when all the kids are in school. It's only going to leave the weekends and evenings and that's when all the other families are out and about. It's nice to do things during the day when everyone is as school or work. I just wish I could go back and relive the last five years with him. I feel like it went way too fast :( His looks are changing more and more by the day too! He's starting to look so big, and sheesh just like his dad! He's a handsome little man that's for sure. His faveorite thing right now is playing video games..just like his dad. He's already (just recently) beat Call of Duty..at only five years old..I can't even play the game and he beat it!

We took them to the fair last friday. They had a blast! We let Max go on his first ride and he freaked out and we had to take him off before it was over. It was so funny too because when we walked in he pointed to everything and I thought he would love the rides..but they scared him. The kids had a blast though. I wish the fair was in the fall so the weather didn't ware you out so fast. But it makes me think about when I was little and my dad used to always take us to do fun stuff like that. I love that the kids get to do it and have so much fun <3

Makenna is my little dancer now! She's loving it! She dances at Judy Dollenmayer. She's taking Combo 1. Every tues and wed she goes and she just loves it. I love how pretty she looks in her clothes and the look on her face when I take her. It's just amazing to see her enjoying a hobby! It's def our special time every week. She's really excited about going to prek at Stoneybrook this fall. I'm not ready to let her go either. I know she's a big girl and she needs to do it...but I'm just going to miss her and Bubs so bad while they are at school :(

Well I guess that's all for right now! I'm going to try to start doing this at the end of every night again. I miss not blogging about all the cute silly things they are doing! I need to get back to that!

Big kids bed

On tuesday Max spent the whole night in his big boy bed! I'm not sure if he stayed in it or not because he woke me up in the morning crying at his door. But I put him to bed in the bottom bunk. He's always crawling out of his pack and play..so I figured he was ready for it. It's been a few days now, and he knows that that is his bed! I need to get the rest of the room put together so Mikhail can be on the top bunk now. It's so crazy. I still feel like he's my little baby, it's so hard to believe that he's sleeping in a real bed and getting ready to have a birthday in just little over a month. I figured Mady would still want to be in her pack and play for a while. But the next day I laid her down in Makenna's bed, and she slept there for her whole nap! She's sooo cute :) She will not crawl out of bed. She sits there until I come to get her. She knows that that's her bed, and she loves it! She's been sleeping in there ever since, even at night. My Mom is going to give me another bed just like it, my brothers..so that will be Makenna's bed. I really need to get the house put together and organized better. Both of those beds have drawers under them..I need to take advantage of that! I'm really loving this house :)

My Crazy kiddos!

So I sware I need to take a camera into Maddox's room with me when he's crying. He's always stuck in the craziest positions! I should make a book of all the ways he gets stuck. He gets stuck in the bunk bed ladder. The other day he was stuck between the matress and the bed. There's a cube shelf in his room that he's demolished getting stuck in so many times. The kid is crazy! Today I was trying to lay him down and he got stuck in the ladder..I got him out, shut the door and not even two minutes later..he was screaming again..I go in, and he's stuck in the ladder again? Kid is crazzzy! And when ever I tell him 'no' or he knows I'm mad at him..he gives me the sweetest kisses and cuddles..so it's impossible to be mad at him. He's just too darn cute for his own good.

Madelyn has been sleeping all day. She got up today at like 10am..wasn't even up for an hour..went back to bed..and is still there and its 235pm. She's teething really bad, and the poor girl prefers to just sleep through it. I think she's growing too. She's walking around the house all the time. Once she figured it out..she just took off with it!

Makenna I think might just be my crazziest kid out of all of them. She completely cracks me up with her..Turn this show mom..it's giving me an ear infection! She swares that when I put on a show she doesn't like it gives her an ear infection. I love the way she explains things to me. Like the other day I was trying to get her to want her ears pierced..and she freaked out and told me how much it hurts and that they put a HOLE in your blood. Lol she's so silly. She's also such a sweet pea too. She was telling me yesterday that for Mother's day she's going to pick me daisies, roses, and sunflowers, and danilions. Haha she's so sweet.

Mikhail went to safety town last week! It's crazy..I remember going when I was little. He loved it and learned some great things. That's really an awesome program for the kids. Makenna is so excited that it will be her turn to go next year. His graduation was so sweet. It made me realize how big he's getting though. I woke up that morning a little sad thinking that before I know it he'll be graduation from elementary school, then high school, and I didn't even want to think about college! I hate how fast time has to fly by..but at the same time..I really love all the new stages and phases we are getting into.

Tim, Mikhail, Makenna, and I have been making soy candles as our new family project. It is so fun and I really love it! The kids are amazed at how they turn out and that they helped me make them. We rented a table at the Creekside Farmers Market to sell our candles. Any money I get from them is going to go into other crafts and activities with the kids. It's good time that we spend together. They are going to help me sell them too!

They are really excited about the fireworks coming up this weekend. Last year they really got into them..so I'm really excited to see how they react this year :)

Safety Town

I've been wanting to write a blog like every day this week and just haven't sat down and committed to it. Life has been amazing this week. Not that it's not amazing every week. But wow, it's so good this week! Mikhail is going to Safety Town every day this week from 12-3. He absolutely loves it. I love spending all my time with him. But with him having fun at school, I get to spend some quality time with Ken and the Babies too. The other day the babies were sleeping and I had Kenny in my room and I was doing here hair and then I painted her nails and she just felt so special..it made me feel good. After I painted her nails, she wanted to paint mine..and I let her. She told me she never did that before..lol which she's right..the last time she used nail polish she painted her own nails/fingers. But she told me she needed to practice for when she's a mommy like me some day :) aww that melted my heart! She also said it was a good thing daddy wasn't home to see her doing it because he wouldn't be happy about it! She's a silly thing! Yesterday while he was in school, we went shopping and we went to the smoothie king and had a fit n crunchy bowl together which was super yummy. I just loved spending some one on one time with her. She would be a great only child. When it's just her, she never cries or throws a fit or is braty. I love having four kids..but I think Makenna was meant to be an only child! Today we woke up to a flat tire on the van. Tim had to go to court for a speeding ticket...and I didn't want Mikhail to miss Safety Town..either did he. So he rode his bike and I pushed the babies..Tim took Ken with him to court because there was no way she woulda made that walk! It was really hot and it was 3.48 miles one way..so Mikhail did that on his bike! He didn't complain once. He actually told me it was a lot of fun :) And when I picked him up [with the car] he asked if he could ride his bike home again! LoL goof ball. I did about 7 miles straight with the twins though. By the time I got home..I thought I was going to die. But honestly..it felt really good. I would love to do some long walks like that some more. It feels good to be losing weight and loving the way I look! It's been a while since I felt that. Hee hee we stopped at CVS to get Mikhail and the babes a drink...and he saw these silly bands that he just had to have..and he said that everyone on his tball team had them..and it just hit me, like my little boy is growing up! He's already at the, these are the cool thing stage, gotta have them. Wierd! These last 5 years have gone by in a flash..I hope the rest slow down a bit. Anyways, I'm super tired..so I better dip..laterzzz

growing up

The days seem to be flying by so fast lately! I just had my birthday two days ago! I'm 25! It's crazy..I feel like I just turned 21 the other day..and four years have passed :( I wish time would slow down a little. My babies are getting ready to be 2. It's so hard for me to actually admit to myself that I will never have another baby. I was going through the kids old clothes the other day and I was almost in tears when I saw the outfits the twins used to wear and how they used to be sooo big on them..or remember Mikhail and Makenna in their baby clothes and now they are four and five! I told Tim I was so sad and he said they have to grow up someday..we have to stop having kids someday. And I know he's right, but that doesn't change how I feel :( And the arguement that it gets easier the older they get doesn't really apply to me right now. Last summer was so much easier. The twins weren't walking so they would just sit in the stroller while we went places..bottles made everything better, and there were multiple naps a day. Now they are walking everywhere, they cry when we go anywhere, they rarely nap, and they want to eat allllll the time. It's just a lot more complicated this summer. I love seeing them explore new things and watching the grow. But the thought that before I know it they are going to be in school makes me sad.

Max is so sweet :) While I was sitting her typing he got up and gave Mady a bink :) He's really sweet! He is really good at sharing. Yesterday he was sooo rotten though. I came home from the pool with the big kids and I heard him SCREAMING in his room. Tim said that every time he went to get him out, Max was sitting right behind the door and everytime Tim would open it Maddox would slam the door shut. So I thought for sure that if I went up he would open the door for me..but nope! I had to sneak in past him, and when I did..he was SO mad. He hit me and threw an even bigger fit. Finally I convinced him to come out and he was fine. But lately little man has had such a big attitude!

The pool was soooo much fun with the big kids yesterday! That's how I'm going to have to take them to do things this summer..when Tim's home and is able to watch the babies I'll be able to take them out to do big kid things. But Mikhail was jumping in with NO floats! He was going under to get toys and swimming. I was so shocked! I'm so proud of him! He's such a little water bug :) Makenna is the exact opposite lol. Of course ;) She won't get her hair wet. She plays on the stairs. But she has fun and that's all that matters.

oopps just looked at the clock and it's time to get Mack ready for his tball game! More laters :)

update :)

So summer is definately not going to go as planned. Last year I was out and about all the time. Last year..the twins were NOT walking! This summer is going to be hard for the big kids. They are already crying that we don't ever go any where. And it's going to be very hard to go anywhere with the twins this summer. Maddox gave me a BIG scare at Creekside today. The kid is just so wild. He's always trying to hang on the bridge or climb something dangerous. He's like four children in one..he really is. I'm going to have to figure this out. I don't want a boring summer..I just want a SAFE summer though! We'll see!

Lately Max has been the cutest and most rotten little stinker ever! On one hand, every time he hears Mady cry he gives her a bink. Tim and I were laughing today because they remember where they are. Every time he hears her cry he just runs and gets one and then gives it to her, and then he claps because he knows it was sweet of him. Mady will clap too :) It's the cutest thing ever! And lately he's been stealing kisses from her! I want to get one on tape sooo bad! But they are always out of no where. At first it was him kissing her, but now she'll kiss back, so it's so sweet! I was getting sad because they were so lovey when they were new borns, always holding hands and snugglin..and it seemed like they were never going to be like that again. But now they are kissing and hugging on each other..it melts a Mama's heart!

He's rotten becauseeee he NEVER goes to sleep when he's supposed to. The kid won't take a nap for nothing..as soon as I walk out of the room he scales out of his pack n play like he's jackie chan :/ And at night he just screams and screams..and then he gets up in the middle of the night. That's super rough too. Last night Tim went out with his cousins..the babies were alseep, and the big kids were sleeping in my bed. I was just going to leave them there and I crawled into bed with them. When Tim got home, he put them in thier own beds and just left their doors open [because the ac is broke] but in the middle of the night I just happened to radomly wake up and Max was standing in the hall way cuddling a big blanket. He could have fallen down the stairs..I was so mad Tim didn't put up the baby gate. I sware the kid is accident prone. And then he came into my bed and kicked and hit and poked and pinched me all night long. I hardly got any sleep. And whenever he's super rotten, he kisses me..which just totally melts my heart...so I can't ever be mad about it. LOL Tim and I were laughing that he's our little Chucky doll..he's so sweet and innocent...until he moves! bahahaha! I love him bunches..but he drives me insane!

We got Madelyn and pair of Stride Rites today, and she's been walking all over the place in them :) I thought I would hate them, but I think she looks really cute in them :) She's got little chunker legs and it's adorable. Tim took the big kids to go visit thier Uncle Bryan and family, and Max actually went to sleep..so it's just been me and her. We took her grocery cart and baby doll outside and she pushed it all the way down the side walk and back! With out falling too! I'm SO proud of her! No matter what any one says about her walking, she's my tough babe :) The whole time I was pregnant with the Chubs, Max was on top of her. She held them in until she couldn't any more, and they were born so healthy! I don't mind if she needs help walking! She's so healthy, and so sweet and so strong. She's my perfect baby girl!

Speaking of perfect baby girls...my other perfect princess is amazing too! She's been so sweet talking to Jesus all the time <3 She still has her temper tantrums and can be rotten. But she's a sweet heart. I love watching her and Mikhail play. They both have amazing imaginations. And she is so absolutely beautiful! She's going to start dance class in July and I can't wait. She's my baby doll!

Mikhail is almost done with Tball. He wants to do every sport. He really wants to see the new karate kid that's coming out, and I think we are going to do karate after tball. He's so athletic just like his dad! When we were getting Mady her new shoes, Mikhail saw some that he loved..and we were talking about bringing him back for back to school shopping..and I couldn't beleive we were actually saying that. I really don't know what I'll think when my little guy starts school full time. I'll probably cry :(

Sable Girl

Tues was a really rough day for our family :( We had to go over to my Mom and Dad's and say goodbye to our childhood dog Sable. Our whole family including my kids, right down to the twins loved her so much! Every time we would go over to visit my parents, she would be hanging out on the front pourch and the kids would always run up and yell, 'Bizzle' and they would give her lots of lovins. They would always beg Mimi's to give her treats. Sable was the reason for lots of laughs and giggles. The babies loved to climb all over her and she let them. She never once nipped at them. They used to laugh and laugh at her. They really loved her too! I remember every time I would bring a new baby over to Mom's house, Sable would be so curious. She would always want to know all about the babies, and she would be very mothering and protective. If they were sitting in thier car seat, she would be right there watching over them. It was almost like she knew there was a baby in there and she had to protect them. She was a great dog!

She was getting very sick though. Tuesday she wouldn't eat or drink, she could barely even stand up. It was hard to watch her suffer like that. I hate putting dogs to sleep..but my heart was aching over her suffering. So we took the kids over Tuesday to let them love on her one last time. Mikhail and Makenna understand Heaven and that's where Sable would be going. I definately thank God for giving them that understanding that everything is ok. They made me cry so many times. Makenna kept telling me she didn't want Sable to die. And right before we left she blew her a kiss that I got a picture of :( And Mikhail told me he 'knew Sable all of his days'. I swear for being such little people, they have such big understandings of the world around them. That night we said prayers for Sable, and the kids told God how much they love her and asked him to watch over her. Mikhail said that the 'human Angels got a new pet' And they talked about how Sable would be playing with Buster and Dr. Ryan :) They are so sweet! Sable was put to rest on Wed. Mom and Brian took her. I couldn't do it. I felt like a coward for not going, but I just knew it was something my heart couldn't handle. They said the dr. gave her a shot to help her relax and she fell asleep, snoring and all..and then they put her to sleep. Mom said she just looked so peaceful like she was sleeping. I miss her so much. I will miss the sound of the kids running up the drive way calling for her and laughing. But I'm glad she's not hurting anymore. Mom had her cremated. But the kids really want to make her a grave so they can still talk to her. So we are going to decorate garden stones for her and Buster. The kids still talk to Sable. They know that she's in Heaven and that she can hear them :) They tell her they love her atleast once a day. Mikhail told us that she would wait for him up there, that someday when he was old he would go up there and play with her :) So they are helping me to feel better about it too.