So I love to complain in a blog and get it all out and then delete it :) Makes me feel better! I'm having a bit of a rough morning..but hopefully things will get better soon. I'm going to start walking atleast once a day again. That always makes me feel really good. Timmy went out last night and got Bear a new collar and a new leash because he out grew his. I love that it's starting to get cooler at night :)

I can't believe summer is almost over. I'm sad about it. I was telling Tim how sad I was the other day and how guilty I've been feeling about not taking the kids anywhere lately..and he made me feel a little better about it. It's been so hard this summer to take the twins anywhere. Last summer it was so easy..I guess that's why it feels so hard this summer. Last summer they weren't walking. They would just sit in the stroller and watch the big kids do everything..They only crawled so it was easy to go places. This summer, they don't want to sit in the stroller. They both just scream any time we go anywhere and expect them to sit in the stroller. They can't stand heat either..which that makes it hard because this summer has been insanely hott. Hopefully this will be a nice fall. I'm getting a new stroller since mine broke. It's hard not having one right now. But my new one should be here within the next week :) When Mikhail and Makenna are in school I'll be able to take them on long walks outside. And I'll be able to get around more. I really want to spend special time with Makenna while he's in school too because this will be my last year with her that she's not in full time school. It will be easier for her to understand that when Mikhail's not in school we need to spend special time with him and take him places by him self.

It's so wierd. My whole life is going to change yet again this fall. I feel like that's all my life is, is a constant change. For the past five years I got pregnant and moved constantly. The kids are always doing something different...whether it's a different school or sport ect..This summer is going to be a really big change for us with Mikhail starting public school. I seriously can't believe it's almost that time! I wish I could go back and relive the last five years..I wouldn't change a thing, I just wish I could hold him as my newborn again..and go to his first birthday again..and see him meet his baby sister for the first time again. I wish I could go back to the day he felt the babies kick for the first time and called them his little Chubbies :) I wish I could take him to his first day of preschool again, I would love to relive Disney and see all the magic in his face. I wish I could go to his first tball game again. I wish I could do a lot of things again. Life just passes you buy so fast it doesn't seem fair. But I'm greatful for the first time :)

Anyways...well Mikhail and Makenna are spending some time in thier room because they just couldn't get along and I was sick of dealing with it. The babies are playing on the sun pourch..so hopefully after everyone has a little quiet time..the day will get better!