Tomorrow is the last day of Makenna's first dance class ;( I'm going to miss taking her every week. I love how cute she looks in her clothes and how excited she is to go. I love going to the thrift store and finding goodies..and I love talking to all the other parents while we wait for our girls! I'm not sure if I'm going to send her to JD or Pinelle for the fall. I really like JD because we already went there this time..and it's right by the thrift store..and I know a lot of the other mom's are going to be sending their kids there in the fall...but I want Makenna to do competion dancing. Pinelle makes the girls try out before compition and JD doesn't. I don't want her to compete with girls who aren't putting thier whole heart into it the way I know Makenna will. So I will probably switch her. I just don't know if Pinelle will make her take beginning dance again..I don't want her to have to repeat what she just took. But I'm really excited for tomorrow..we get to actually sit in and watch the class. I can't wait to see how she does..and you know I will be taking lots of video and pictures!

I kind of can't wait for school to start. I know I'm going to regret wishing away the nice weather. Fall goes way too fast, and I absolutely hate the winter time. But I'm excited to have some structure once again. Makenna is going to be going to prek Mon, Wed, and Fri and Mikhail will be going to school full day. Since I have to get the kids up and ready to take the big kids to school, I might as well take the twins to the y and then pick up Makenna come home for lunch and naps and get the house cleaned and dinner started and everything ready for the next day to do it all over again..ahh seems like a lot but I know the stucture will be nice to help me get through the day better.

I really want to go back to school in the fall as well. I don't know if that will actually happen or not. I just started thinking about it again, and there's a lot I have to do to make that happen. My parents offered to fully help me with the kids so I could go. But that's just one more thing to add to my pile of to do. It's been soo long since I've been in school, I don't know if I can do it. I want to try though. I feel like I need a challenge and some time away from the house..just to help with stress. I just don't know what Tim's back to school schedule is going to look like and if it's really possible. I might have to wait until next fall..I'll be a little sad putting it off for another year.

WOW! My twins are almost TWO! I can't believe it..I still think of them as being just about one. I can't believe two years have almost passed. I was getting them dressed for bed tonight and watching them be all crazy and I was thinking..wow, when Mikhail was twenty four months old, I had a ten month old also..I don't know how I did it..and how I was able to add new born twins to the mix when Makenna was just a little older than two and Mikhail was three. It's really funny how we just adapt to things. They are changing so much all the time! Madelyn loveees to read books. She's always bringing them to me and she likes to point to things in them. Her faveorite bed time book is an Elmo one and she likes to find Elmo in all the pictures. Tim has taught her to say UH OH and it's the cutest ever! She also likes to "Whop" Tim on the head! Every time I tell her to whop him..she gets her fist ready and she whops him on the head. I think it's absolutely halarious. She also has a 'get mad' or 'get mean' face that cracks me up and she grunts like crazy! I just love her little personality :) She likes to fight because she sees Tim doing that with the big kids and how they laugh and play and she wants to be apart of that. She's still Daddy's girl..but she likes to Whop him! Maddox is my boy all the way still. He's a kisser and a lover and hates to go to sleep. Drives me nuts every night at bed time. She sits in his room and screams and watches for you under the door. He's a big old fit thrower. He still hasn't had his first hair cut..which he desperately needs..but I love his blonde curls..he's my little surfer boy and I love it! Tim wants to get it all cut off and that's going to break my heart! He's such a boy and he's Mikhail's best friend and I love it. He loves to kiss on Mikhail and he's really into playing with cars and trucks. I know him and Mikhail are going to have a lot of fun together being Buds :)

School!

I know it's Sunday and they don't deliver mail today..so I must have gotten it yesterday and just didn't check..but I got Mikhail's school info today! Wow things have changed a lot since I was in school. They are only sending a third the kindergartners to school at a time. Mikhail's first day will be Aug 25th but then he won't go back until Aug 30th. And they said I could ride the bus with him! But they said they aren't offering transportation home..lol that's ok..I can walk back! It's not that far :) I'm really glad they are offering to let us ride the bus with them..because I'm a little worried that Mikhail won't know what to do on the bus. It will be exciting! They also haven't assigned him to a teacher yet. They are going to test all the students and then do thier assements after that. That's kind of crazy! I remember when I was a kid, you just had a teacher. I remember going to Goshen Lane every summer and it was taped to the window..it was always fun to go find your name and teacher on the list. There's also a couple meetings on the 23rd I'll get to go to. That's exciting also! He's super pumped about going to school. I know he's going to love it! I hope he makes lots of friends and has lots of fun everyday. I'm going to miss my little man while he's away ;(

Today was my Daddy's 51st bday! I was talking to him and I asked him if he realized that 30 years ago today he was having his first legal 'whole' beer..because they used to have that 2/3 beer or whatever it was back then. And it was just crazy thinking that someday..I'm going to hopefully be looking back and thinking WOW..The things he's seen and accomplished in his life thus far is incredible. He has an amazing loving wife, two children, and four beautiful grandchildren <3 I really love my daddy :) I truely think that both of my parents have the biggest hearts ever! I've never seen two people give so much of themselves and ask so little in return. I started making soy candles and selling them to ear a little money outside of being a stay at home mom. My dad 'lent' me a hundred dollars to get going..and today he told me that was his investment into my business. I didn't expect that out of him..but he's always doing sweet things like that for me. And I'm always so greatful..I really hope he knows that! I think he and my Mom are my biggest fans. They are always so supportive! They really are amazing people <3 I'm a lucky lucky girl!

I went shopping today to get my dad a little present for his bday. We got him a sleeveless Browns shirt :) As soon as I saw it, I just thought of him. The kids were so excited to give it to him..though Mikhail is torn between being a Browns fan and a Steelers fan. I'm obviously a Browns fan and Tim is a Steelers fan..so Mikhail always says he's just a Buckeye's fan..lol I think that's his neutral team. He's a smart kid! I got a brown gift bag and let the kids draw on it. Mikhail drew him and Paps and Mimis on the front. He was going to draw Sis on the front..but he messed up, so he crossed it out and drew her on the back. On the front he drew grass under each of the people..because they were camping. And he drew a piece of cake in Mikhail's hand and a piece that Mimi and Paps were sharing. He also drew a sun with a smiling face :) it was so sweet! On the back he drew him and Makenna holding hands, she added balloons and drew a picture of me also <3 I love thier pictures and listening to the explain thier art work. Mikhail wrote Paps name at the top of his card. Max bumped the table when he was writting it and messed up his 's' so Mikhail crossed that 's' out and wrote a better 's' :) He's such a prefectionist! He also signed Mikhail, Makenna, Maddy, (and) Max at the bottom and finished it off with 'xoxo' for 'I love you hugs and kisses' I was really proud of all his writting! They were both really proud of thier pictures and his card! They love birthdays, they are really special <3

When I was at the store today, I got them some more color pencils. They are really loving drawing and writting. I want to put a desk in thier room so they can sit up there and have some quiet time. It's just so hard with them having to share a room with the babies. It's hard for them to have big kid stuff when the babies are able to be in there and mess with thier big kid stuff. I really wish I could have two more rooms in this house. I don't know what to do. Even if I put the big kids together..the babies can't really share a room. They would never sleep..they would just mess with each other the whole time. ahh what to do what to do...

I got Mikhail some new shirts at the store today, and he was so proud of them! I love that he's so greatful when I buy him things. He really loved the shirts. He was showing them off every time someone came over today. One of them had rock n roll guitars on them..which he loved. Another one had a scull and the other had dirtbikes! He's all boy <3 I can't believe he's going to school soon. It's really wierd to think that he's going to be in public school and not just pre school. I keep thinking of all the things he'll need and want. I want him to have cool clothes and shoes...when in the past we always just let him rock crocks or whatever was easiest. But I want him to have cool shoes and cool clothes. I know it doesn't really matter in kindergarten..but still :P

And Makenna is so girly, I'm having a blast shopping for her! She loves all the super girly stuff and all the accessories. She's so different than I used to be. I used to be very girly when I was littler..wouldn't wear anything but dresses...but then I turned pretty tom boyish..she's anything but. Except she can hold her own wrestling with the boys. Wlep..it's been a bunch of crazy rambling I'm insanely bored now that the house is quiet and everyone is sleeping. I was going to work on my OSU candles..but I'll have to wait until tomorrow..it's getting too late to dive into that tonight

So I love to complain in a blog and get it all out and then delete it :) Makes me feel better! I'm having a bit of a rough morning..but hopefully things will get better soon. I'm going to start walking atleast once a day again. That always makes me feel really good. Timmy went out last night and got Bear a new collar and a new leash because he out grew his. I love that it's starting to get cooler at night :)

I can't believe summer is almost over. I'm sad about it. I was telling Tim how sad I was the other day and how guilty I've been feeling about not taking the kids anywhere lately..and he made me feel a little better about it. It's been so hard this summer to take the twins anywhere. Last summer it was so easy..I guess that's why it feels so hard this summer. Last summer they weren't walking. They would just sit in the stroller and watch the big kids do everything..They only crawled so it was easy to go places. This summer, they don't want to sit in the stroller. They both just scream any time we go anywhere and expect them to sit in the stroller. They can't stand heat either..which that makes it hard because this summer has been insanely hott. Hopefully this will be a nice fall. I'm getting a new stroller since mine broke. It's hard not having one right now. But my new one should be here within the next week :) When Mikhail and Makenna are in school I'll be able to take them on long walks outside. And I'll be able to get around more. I really want to spend special time with Makenna while he's in school too because this will be my last year with her that she's not in full time school. It will be easier for her to understand that when Mikhail's not in school we need to spend special time with him and take him places by him self.

It's so wierd. My whole life is going to change yet again this fall. I feel like that's all my life is, is a constant change. For the past five years I got pregnant and moved constantly. The kids are always doing something different...whether it's a different school or sport ect..This summer is going to be a really big change for us with Mikhail starting public school. I seriously can't believe it's almost that time! I wish I could go back and relive the last five years..I wouldn't change a thing, I just wish I could hold him as my newborn again..and go to his first birthday again..and see him meet his baby sister for the first time again. I wish I could go back to the day he felt the babies kick for the first time and called them his little Chubbies :) I wish I could take him to his first day of preschool again, I would love to relive Disney and see all the magic in his face. I wish I could go to his first tball game again. I wish I could do a lot of things again. Life just passes you buy so fast it doesn't seem fair. But I'm greatful for the first time :)

Anyways...well Mikhail and Makenna are spending some time in thier room because they just couldn't get along and I was sick of dealing with it. The babies are playing on the sun pourch..so hopefully after everyone has a little quiet time..the day will get better!

I used to..

I used to blog all the time. I think about it from time to time and say, 'later I'm going to blog about this' and I never do :/ I need to change that! I don't know if any one ever even reads them anymore..but I really love going back and rereading them myself. Anyways, so the catch up blog..

Maddox and Madleyn are sleeping in big kid beds now! We didn't even do the toddler bed..they just went straight to big kid beds. Mady did so well with it. I love going in to check on her. She's always curled up on her pillow and covered up with her silky. She never really tosses and turns. She looks so peaceful when she sleeps! Max on the other hand never wants to sleep. It's always a battle with him. I've learned that I just have to put him in his bed and shut the door and let him cry if he's ever going to go to sleep. He always gets out of bed and lays right behind the door and the second I open it to check on him..I bump into him and wake him up...smart little booger! But he makes it pretty impossible to put Mikhail in there..so the poor kid pretty much just sleeps on the floor in our room every night. I'm thinking about setting up a twin bed in there so he can sleep on that. I can transfer Makenna to her room with no problem..but poor Mikhail! Max is freaking halarious. He's figured out that if he gets really low to the floor he can look underneath the door to see what I'm doing. So anytime I go downstairs to do laundry, he lays down right behind the door and watches and cries for me to come up the stairs! I think he also does that when I lay him down to go to sleep.

The babies are getting so smart! Anytime I tell them to do something the turn right around and do it. They aren't really talking much..but thier ability to follow directions shows me they are learning. I know they will talk on thier own time..so I don't get upset about it. They are my babies..I probably baby them a little too much and that's why they don't talk..but that's ok. I'm in no hurry for them to grow up on me!

Haha so of course..I'm writing about what a good little sleeper Mady Jae is..and the tv gets quiet for a minute and I hear her crying. I went up there and she had been sleeping on the floor and must have woke up. She was still pretty out of it..but she just wanted back in her bed :)

Anyways, Tim taught Mady to say, "uh oh" and it's the cutest thing ever! She really makes her mouth in the O shape to say it and she puts her little hand out to do it! This past Saturday Mom and Dad took the big kids camping so we just had the twins. We went shopping and out to eat..and Mady just kept putting on a show for Tim..she was saying uh oh all weekend. We went and visited Tim's grandma and she just loved seeing the babies. I feel bad that we don't get over to see our grandparents as often as we should..I just feel like there's never enough hours in the day. I feel like just as soon as we wake up it's time to start getting ready to go back to bed.

Mikhail is getting really excited about going to school at the end of the month. I really can't believe it's almost that time. I was talking to the parents in Makenna's dance class and they thought I was crazy when I said that I would actually like to have two more babies. I feel like mine are growing up so fast that I'm really going to miss this time in my life. Life is changing so drastically for us..and I'm not ready for it. Mikhail going to school..it's sad for me. I'm going to miss all of our adventures during the week when all the kids are in school. It's only going to leave the weekends and evenings and that's when all the other families are out and about. It's nice to do things during the day when everyone is as school or work. I just wish I could go back and relive the last five years with him. I feel like it went way too fast :( His looks are changing more and more by the day too! He's starting to look so big, and sheesh just like his dad! He's a handsome little man that's for sure. His faveorite thing right now is playing video games..just like his dad. He's already (just recently) beat Call of Duty..at only five years old..I can't even play the game and he beat it!

We took them to the fair last friday. They had a blast! We let Max go on his first ride and he freaked out and we had to take him off before it was over. It was so funny too because when we walked in he pointed to everything and I thought he would love the rides..but they scared him. The kids had a blast though. I wish the fair was in the fall so the weather didn't ware you out so fast. But it makes me think about when I was little and my dad used to always take us to do fun stuff like that. I love that the kids get to do it and have so much fun <3

Makenna is my little dancer now! She's loving it! She dances at Judy Dollenmayer. She's taking Combo 1. Every tues and wed she goes and she just loves it. I love how pretty she looks in her clothes and the look on her face when I take her. It's just amazing to see her enjoying a hobby! It's def our special time every week. She's really excited about going to prek at Stoneybrook this fall. I'm not ready to let her go either. I know she's a big girl and she needs to do it...but I'm just going to miss her and Bubs so bad while they are at school :(

Well I guess that's all for right now! I'm going to try to start doing this at the end of every night again. I miss not blogging about all the cute silly things they are doing! I need to get back to that!

Big kids bed

On tuesday Max spent the whole night in his big boy bed! I'm not sure if he stayed in it or not because he woke me up in the morning crying at his door. But I put him to bed in the bottom bunk. He's always crawling out of his pack and play..so I figured he was ready for it. It's been a few days now, and he knows that that is his bed! I need to get the rest of the room put together so Mikhail can be on the top bunk now. It's so crazy. I still feel like he's my little baby, it's so hard to believe that he's sleeping in a real bed and getting ready to have a birthday in just little over a month. I figured Mady would still want to be in her pack and play for a while. But the next day I laid her down in Makenna's bed, and she slept there for her whole nap! She's sooo cute :) She will not crawl out of bed. She sits there until I come to get her. She knows that that's her bed, and she loves it! She's been sleeping in there ever since, even at night. My Mom is going to give me another bed just like it, my brothers..so that will be Makenna's bed. I really need to get the house put together and organized better. Both of those beds have drawers under them..I need to take advantage of that! I'm really loving this house :)

My Crazy kiddos!

So I sware I need to take a camera into Maddox's room with me when he's crying. He's always stuck in the craziest positions! I should make a book of all the ways he gets stuck. He gets stuck in the bunk bed ladder. The other day he was stuck between the matress and the bed. There's a cube shelf in his room that he's demolished getting stuck in so many times. The kid is crazy! Today I was trying to lay him down and he got stuck in the ladder..I got him out, shut the door and not even two minutes later..he was screaming again..I go in, and he's stuck in the ladder again? Kid is crazzzy! And when ever I tell him 'no' or he knows I'm mad at him..he gives me the sweetest kisses and cuddles..so it's impossible to be mad at him. He's just too darn cute for his own good.

Madelyn has been sleeping all day. She got up today at like 10am..wasn't even up for an hour..went back to bed..and is still there and its 235pm. She's teething really bad, and the poor girl prefers to just sleep through it. I think she's growing too. She's walking around the house all the time. Once she figured it out..she just took off with it!

Makenna I think might just be my crazziest kid out of all of them. She completely cracks me up with her..Turn this show mom..it's giving me an ear infection! She swares that when I put on a show she doesn't like it gives her an ear infection. I love the way she explains things to me. Like the other day I was trying to get her to want her ears pierced..and she freaked out and told me how much it hurts and that they put a HOLE in your blood. Lol she's so silly. She's also such a sweet pea too. She was telling me yesterday that for Mother's day she's going to pick me daisies, roses, and sunflowers, and danilions. Haha she's so sweet.

Mikhail went to safety town last week! It's crazy..I remember going when I was little. He loved it and learned some great things. That's really an awesome program for the kids. Makenna is so excited that it will be her turn to go next year. His graduation was so sweet. It made me realize how big he's getting though. I woke up that morning a little sad thinking that before I know it he'll be graduation from elementary school, then high school, and I didn't even want to think about college! I hate how fast time has to fly by..but at the same time..I really love all the new stages and phases we are getting into.

Tim, Mikhail, Makenna, and I have been making soy candles as our new family project. It is so fun and I really love it! The kids are amazed at how they turn out and that they helped me make them. We rented a table at the Creekside Farmers Market to sell our candles. Any money I get from them is going to go into other crafts and activities with the kids. It's good time that we spend together. They are going to help me sell them too!

They are really excited about the fireworks coming up this weekend. Last year they really got into them..so I'm really excited to see how they react this year :)