It's really weird that my life is changing so much. I always thought that I wouldn't be a career drivin person..but that's exactly what I'm turning into. I am currently going to the spa school for esthetics. My goal in joining the program was that I'd be able to work at a Medi Spa, but now I'm realizing I'm going to need some kind of nursing degree to achieve that. Tomorrow I'm going to go to Columbus State and see what they have to offer as far as a nursing program goes. Everyone is saying that the waiting list is really long, it's kind of discouraging. I'm going to do it anyways. I'm still so younge, even though sometimes I feel so old. I'm only 25. I've accomplished so much in my short 25 years, I think I can do a lot more. I've had four kids, I have a marriage, I've had my ups and downs. Unfortunately right out of high school I didn't go straight into school mode, I started a family first. I think that in a way is against me in my planning. But really my kids will be in school when I start my career, and that will be a bonus. Child care won't be as expensive. Tim is also finishing up his degree. It would be nice for us both to have well paying jobs. I'm really lucky too to have all the support I do. Tim is ver supportive and so are my parents. I've always been such a planner so it's nice to sort of plan the next few years of my life. I have totally loved being a stay at home mom as long as I did. But there are always new chapters and new parts of life to be explored and that's where I'm at right now. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a cross road and there's so many paths I can take..it's a little scary to choose one, but I know I have to trust my heart and go with the one that feels right. Right now it feels right to talk to CSCC :)

On a whole nother note, my kids are changing so much! Mady and Max are talking a lot and they are following directions a lot better. It's so amazing to see how they are changing so much. Maddox is absolutely inlove with Santa. Everytime he sees him he gets so excited! He tries to say, 'ho ho ho' and he knows that Santa gives him presents. It's so cute :) Mady gets excited about Santa too..but when it comes time to see him she freaks out. Mikhail and Makenna can't wait for Christmas. I defiantely want to amke sure that we talk about the true meaning of Christmas with them. But I can't help but to be excited about thier presents. We don't buy them toys very often since they have so many..I really get excited for the excuses to buy them presents!

Max has to go to the doctor tomorrow to check on his ear infections. I think the poor kid just always has them and is going to be getting tubes soon :( I'm scared to think about him getting tubes..but I hate the thought of him being in pain over ear infections :(

Anyways, I try to keep up on the blogs, but a lot of times I fall behind.

The kids are doing amazing. Mikhail is learning SO much! I'm able to sound out a word for him and he's able to spell it for me! He's so smart <3 Makenna is a great daner! She loves ballet and I just love taking her! She's such a sweet and smart little girl. She's really doing well with daycare too! She has a lot of friends there. She even has her first boyfriend Gannon :) She told me that Gannon wants to marry her and one day I went to drop Makenna off and he came running across the room to hug her! I was like WOW, if she's only four and already doing this..imagine 10 years in the future..aye yae yae

Mady & Max have aweful dry sking. Max more than Mady. The doctors tell me to put vasaline on it and hydrocortizone cream, but I don't think it's helping. I'm going to start looking towards some home remidies to try and help them. Today I gave them a bath and let them soak in an Aveno bath soak for dry skin. Max has been crying a lot lately at bath time, and I don't know if it's because it hurts or because he doesn't like the bath..but today he didn't cry :) I wrapped them up in hooded bath towels and they cuddled me like they were still my little babies :) I loved it so much and I just cherished it. They have grown so much, but they are still my babies. It's funny when we go to the day care they see the babies, and they get down and they make little baby noises at the babies..but they are really almost the same size. They are too cute

Teaching the kids organics (:

Today was my day off of school for the week. It really feels weird to be committed to the school four days a week. It really makes the week go really fast! Fridays are awesome days. They are my days to catch up on everything I need to catch up on. Today I was supposed to read a story to Mikhail's class about Christmas. I went to the book store and made sure to pick one out that would tell the real reason of Christmas, Jesus's birth! Of course Mikhail woke up throwing up this morning and he just couldn't go to school. I feel really bad, and I hope the teacher will let me reschedule. Today Mikhail and I just spent the day cleaning up. We had a good day together. Tonight Tim went to practice martial arts to start getting active, and I had a spa night with the kids. Makenna and I had a Mayo & Avacodo hair mask to help with our dry hair. Then we made a face mask with egg, honey, and lavender essential oil that Mikhail, Makenna & I all put on. It was fun and great time together! One reason I decided to go to The Spa School was so that I'd be able to teach the kids good skin care habits. It's fun, even though they are only four and five years old..but it's awesome bonding time. I like teaching them things, and this is definately something I am passionate about. Tonight I told her about make 'organic' products..because she thinks everything should come from the store. I want her to understand the benifits of making your own products and what they do for you. I want to teach all of my kids that. I think the twins are a little too young right now, but Mikhail and Makenna are very into it! It's so fun :)

ohh my..today is only wed. and I'm competely exhausted by this week already! Thankfully there's only one more day left in my school week and then I have a three day weekend with the family :) There's lots of fun Christmas themed things going on this weekend, so I fully plan to spend lots of quality time with them :)

School is going really well. The first week got off to a rough start. I came in every day and played on my computer and didn't do anything. Now I'm really starting to do student services and I'm also doing a lot of research and learning makeup and natural remidies. I'm trying to learn more about the basics of skin care, because I think that's important to understand the more complex parts of it. Unfortunately the hours I go to school are the hours people are working, so I don't get a lot of clients coming in. Today I did a brown and lash tinting which I was really excited about! I also have been doing basic facials, and I feel pretty confident about them. Tomorrow I'm going to focus more on deep pores. It feels really good to be learning and really apply myself to what I'm doing.

It's a little rough part which I know I just have to suck it up and learn to play the game..I can't stand how caddy and petty some girls are. There are a lot of girls that I absolutely love there..but there are some that just make me cringe. I guess it's all just how we were brought up and we all have different back grounds..and that's how it's going to be wherever I go..but it's really frustrating some days. Today was one of those days. Tim and I talk a lot about how we want to raise the kids and how we plan to deal with things financially..and it's annoying to hear people critize that. We have four kids all within three years..so to say that we are going to pay for thier college is unrealistic. I will however always provide housing and transportation and food ect..I don't want them to worry about that..just thier education. But then people are like how are you going to bring four kids into this world and not pay for thier college. I think that's rude. I love my kids and I will do anything for them. I will instill in them that thier education is very important...BUT you have to think realistically..and I won't be able to afford to send all of my kids to school on my dime. Anyways, it's a part of school that annoys me..but for the most part I look forward to going. I'm excited about learning new things every day..and I am making new friends which is awesome :)

Today was December fist and it was the first day it snowed! The kids were amazed! They ran to the door and they were chanting that it was snowing, and Makenna said, 'it's Christmas!' I love their little minds :) Last year the babies were too little last year to like the snow..but today ahhh I wish I could have caught thier expression on camera. Maddox was twrilling around with his hands in the air and just laughing and running through the snow and Mady was compeletely amazed. It's going to be a really fun winter with them. Last year when it snowed I put them in thier high chair and brought snow inside for them to play with..this year they'll be able to tromp through it..it's going to be a blast! They still really aren't talking, but they both were trying to say, 'snow' which sounded more like 'nooo' it was cute though :) It was still snowing tonight, so maybe when we wake up in the morning it will have stuck to the ground and I can see thier excitement again. They are really amazed with Christmas lights and they keep pointing to Santa statues and they get excited..I love it! I'm hoping this will be the best Christmas ever!

I just took a break from the blog to talk to Tim about the kids..and it just makes my heart melt talking about how amazing they are and how much we love them :) Makenna's school was teaching her about occupations and she said she wanted to be in the marching band like mommy when she grows up. Mikhail said he wants to be in construction like Daddy :) I love how they love us. They are really amazing little kids! Anyways..it's getting late and I have class again in the morning..so I'll write more tomorrow

I'm taking on another project :P This one more useful then the past of course. We were using the fourth bedroom in the basement to store stuff..and I've decided to start going through our boxes and getting rid of things we don't need and don't use. I'd like to turn that room into a play room for the big kids. Lately the big kids have been playing in thier room more and have been playing by themselves away from the babies. I don't want there to be a big speration between big kids and babies..but I understand the big kids are starting to like things that are just to big for the babies. For Christmas Mikhail asked for legos, which babies will just swallow and loose. Makenna wants a doll house and I just don't want the babies to wreck that. Plus the big kids are really into art and they need a place to be creative and hang thier art work with out the babies stealing thier stuff and loosing it all over the house. There's a really nice table downt there right now that they can use to do art on and I have storeage shelves for them already. The rest of the room will be really nice for Mikhail to do legos and and for Makenna's doll house we are going to get her for Christmas. I was also thinking it would be nice, if it's possible to put the tv down there for them to be able to play the wii on it. There's a lot more games for little kids on the wii then there is on Tim's xbox 360. Anyways, I had just taken a short break from cleaning and I'm going to get back to it..more later :P

Welp, I'm offically a Senior at school. Doesn't really mean the same thing as when you're a senior at a university..but it also doesn't cost as much ;) Today was my second day as a senior. It wasn't quiet as exciting as my first day. I was just at the table pretending to be busy...when I was really just being tired and lazy..and Ms. Nixon came by and told me I had my first facial. I'm not going to lie, I was scared to death. I litterally thought I might get sick. I completely forgot how to do anything. It was all ok though. My client was so nice. Even though I forgot a lot of stuff, I'm pretty sure I did well. She gave me a five dollar tip and most imprortantly she rebooked with me! Her rebooking with me in December was the biggest compliment. It was such a great expierence for working on my first person. I know there's still so much more for me to learn. I still have so many more first expierences at the spa school...and I know I'm going to be nervous for a while and I can't wait for the day when that passes and I just feel so confident doing services that there's no nervousness.

The only thing I really can't stand about the school is that you basically stop learning after juniors, and you don't learn enough in juniors to get you through. I feel like there's a lot of stuff I have to teach my self and learn on my own. When I go into school, we basically sit at a table and do nothing the whole time unless we choose to. But I have faith in my self that I will excel at this. I feel like I have the drive and the determination. It was definately a big compliment when my first client told me I was in the right feild of work and that I was good at it :)

I still don't know where our future is going to take us. I don't know what I'm going to do once I'm out of school. I'd really like to work in a spa. I'm definately thinking about interning and hopefully that will land me a job. I think the best way to learn is by watching and working. For so long I've only seen Tim and I's life in Gahanna..but I'm starting to see that eventually were are going to travel outside of this bubble and we are going to explore life outside of gahanna. I know this blog is taking a different turn..but that's kind of just how I write my blogs. But Gahanna is becoming everything I despise in towns. I can't wait to get out of here. This used to be a little town and it used to be personable. I feel like they have expanded so large. I don't want my kids growing up just being a number and a statistic in the school system. I want them to be a name and a person and I want a teacher to see the potential in them. I definately want the small town school and life experience for my family and I. I was talking to a girl in class today and she lived out in the country and we talked about the dirt bikes and four wheelers..and there's just a whole nother life to expierence outside of the city life and that's what I want to expierence.

I'm really stressed out tonight and need a little blog therapy before I go to bed. I had applied for Title 20 to help me out with daycare. It's $242 a week per kid..and since I have four kids..that's about 4 grand a month..insane. I don't know who can afford to pay that? I just feel like with out day care I'll never be able to work or go to school. Tim's job is so physically demanding, I can't expect him to take care of the kids as soon as he gets home so I can go work or go to school. I can't believe they waited to tell me I wasn't going to have daycare until like four days before my full time school schedule started :( I just feel like things are really hard right now. I had Mady and Max in a good routine at thier daycare. They really liked thier teachers and they had friends..and now they might now have a spot in daycare by the time I get everything approved. I just really want to get out of this rut that I'm in right now. It's so hard because I'm only 25 and I feel like the things I deal with and go through on a daily basis are things that people in their 40s deal with..not 25 year olds. I wouldn't trade my kids or my husband for anything..I just wish there weren't the struggles sometimes. I feel like I know there will be a light at the end of the tunnle I just want to see it sometime soon.

It's so hard to be a planner when plans always change. I always think things so far out and things just constantly change. I had planned on working more and going to school very part time. But works not giving out as many hours as I'd like..so I think I'm going to completely flip it. I'm going to go to school a lot and work a very little. I know Tim and I can use the money with me working..but it really would be nice to graduate in May. I'm a little worried about becoming a senior, because all the seniors do is bitch about how much they can't stand it. I guess I'll just try to soak up all the knowledge I can. I'm bound and determinded to be successful. I really think that there's been so many people against me..it just feuls me to be more and to do better. Some day I'm going to own my own spa. I know I can do whatever I want, I just have to do it. I'm excited to kind of buckle down and knock my school out!

Now that the kids are in daycare almost everyday...I try to make the most out of my time with them when they get home. I picked them up today and we went trick or treating at giant eagle..which was so cute! The kids just couldn't get over doing that in a grocery store. Mikhail and Makenna noticed there was a new bank at the store and when Mikhail saw Tim he told him there was a job for him at the bank :) I think it's so cute that they associate banks with Tim :) That's what he's done every since they were babies. After we went trick or treating we went and saw Tim for his dinner break. I really love that. I don't think Tim knows how much I enjoy going to see him on his break. But we just drove around while he ate and we talked about school and work and everything..we are such planners and it drives me crazy sometimes. But it's always good to have a plan :). After we dropped him back off at work we went home to eat and the babies got a bath. I had bought the big kids a bingo game today. I thought it would help them read numbers and letters. They loved it! We had so much fun playing and they did such a good job reading the numbers and letters..I was really proud of them..and it's really good family time :) We played until all three of us got a bingo. I really want to teach them to be good sports about winning and loosing.

Max and Mady are starting to talk a lot more! Max said 'Sissy' for the first time yesterday. His faveorite word right now is Bubba :) he also says, Mama, Dada, and I've heard him say drink but it sounds more like dink a could of times. Mady is trying to talk more too. She's says Buba well, and she says, 'Brrrr' when it's cold and 'uhoh' a lot. She's saying Mama and Dada too. She really likes B words though! It's amazing to hear all the things they are saying and they way thier little personalities are shining through.

I haven't fully adjusted into our new life style yet. I assume that will happen this week when I am scheduled almost every single day. I hope that it just eventually becomes second nature for me and I don't feel so tired all the time. Because right now I just always feel so exhausted. I don't think people understand what it feels like for me. I've been a stay at home mom for so long. I've not really had to answer to anyones schedule ever. I did what I wanted, when I wanted. I'm not trying to sound like a spoiled brat, it's just really the way my day went. It started to change with Mikhail when I had to start being here for him to get off the bus. That really limited the things I could do with the kids during the day. But I love Mikhail going to school. He has so much fun with his friends. I got to see him interact with them at the Walk a Thon..and it was so cute. He knew so many kids and everyone was nice to everyone. I love this age right now when everyone is just friends and there's no judgements. But now I have to answer to my job and to school. I can't just do things with the kids when I want to. Some times I think about it and I start to panic. I feel like maybe they'll think I'm abandoning them at daycare. I know that's not how they think and I know they have lots of fun. I just miss being with them all day and I think I'm punishing my self by making myself feel bad about it. I know that I definately enjoy the time I do have with them a lot more. We definately make the most of it. Thursday I didn't have to work and Mikhail didn't have school and Tim didn't have to work until 5..so we took the kids to Blackhand Gorge. I used to go there with my family when I was little and it's amazing to be able to share that with my kids. It was absolutely beautiful. Tim and Mikhail got to go off on the tracks and have a blast. Makenna played in the leaves and the babies got to run around. It was a really perfect fall day! That's one of the good parts about having a day off when you work all the time..you really make the most of it. No lazy days anymore :) Madelyn and Maddox are actually trying to talk a lot more. Yesterday when we were at my dad's, she was saying, 'pap pap' and when you ask her what a pirate says, she says, 'argggg' Maddox is saying, 'Mama' and 'Dada' & 'Nana' a lot more. They are starting to make sounds and attempt to talk. I'm really proud of them. When I went to pick them up from the day care yesterday, Maddox was working on a collage with his friends. He was gluing fall leaf cut outs on a big piece of paper. I just really think daycare is a good thing for them. I think me going back to work it a really good thing for our family. It's just the first time I've ever really had a demanding job that I have to be there for a full shift almost every day. I'm not bieng a baby about it, it's just a lot of adjustment. I got promoted too :) I was just a reg sales assoc..but I'm in prestige now! I'm really excited about that. I'm trying so hard to make a good name for myself with the company and I really want to move up. I always think it's good to have goals, it keeps you striving for something more :) Anyways, I guess this was just some of the randomness on my mind..lol there seems to be a lot of that lately.

My life has changed so much I sort of don't recognize it! I've been a stay at home mom for so long, and in September I started school..which was a big thing for me. I go Tuesday and Thursday nights and Saturday all day. Tim's been so supportive of me and so have my parents. It feels nice for them to support me in doing something that I really want to do, even if it means more strain on them..because I really lean on them for help with the kdis. And then I applied for a job at Ulta. I got hired on as a sales associate, my goal is to be an esthetican with them when I finish with my school. Since I started a job, the kids have to go to day care during the day. That was a really big step for Tim and I. It's really hard to trust someone with our kids. It's sad for me to know someone else is loving on my kids and doing fun things with them..when that's my job. But I know that they are having a lot of fun and that day care is a really good thing for them. They have so much fun and they are happy to go! Everyday they go, I get a report from the teachers on the things they did and how they did during the day. I really love to read the papers and to just know that I'm doing the right thing for my kids. I know that I'm doing what's best for our family, and that makes me feel really good!

I love haning out with Mikhail while we wait for the bus. I need to spend more one on one time with all of the kids. They really eat it up. Today I sat out on the front pourch with Mikhail and we talked about his cute little frekles and how they are all over his face. He's so cuddley too. I love it! I love that he's still young enough that when he runs to the bus, he turns around to tell me he loves me! I love that he sometimes waves to me on the bus, but most of the time he's busy talking to his friends. I love that he has friends! That was one of my biggest worries sending him off to kindergarten was that he wasn't going to have any friends. I don't know why I was worried, he's a great kid. He's got an awesome personality, he's funny, and he's (most of the time) really good to other kids. (Sometimes he gets a rotten bone in him) I'm just so proud of him! Last night he read a book to me that they made in class. He's been learning sooo much! A couple weeks back I was on the computer, and he came up to me and said, 'Google Map our address' I was like what!?, so I did it, and it showed us where we lived, even a picture of our house! He definately learned that in school, and it just amazed me! I wondered if sending him to full day was a good idea or not, but I think having the extra time at school is a really good thing for him. He needs it. They get to learn in a more relaxed enviornment..they aren't rushing to fit everything into the day.

Makenna is really loving her Preschool. I love to go and see thier song time, and see her sitting in her class and playing with her friends. Yesterday I had to pick her up 10 minutes early for my interview..and when we were leaving..she said by to a friend, the wholeee class said 'Bye Makenna' and it was just so sweet! I love that my kids have friends. I love to see Makenna running around and playing with the little girls..she even gets along with the boys too..she loves to play chase with them..haha the age old game! When I took her to the doctor last friday..there was a boy who was also four in the waiting room..and instantly they started running around the whole waiting room, laughing and chasing each other..if you wouldn't have known better you would have thought they were best friends. It was so cute! The little boy was sad when Makenna got called back to the room. But that's just the personality she has, it's very easy to like her :) It's even easier to LOVE her <3

I got my job though! I'm so excited! I'll be working at Ulta. I'll be working with beauty products and doing makeup, it really goes we'll with my school. It's awesome to have a job that you'll actually enjoy ;) The only hard part is, Makenna isn't going to be able to go to Stoneybrook anymore. I feel so bad! She really does love it there. But I'm going to need her to go to a day care instead. She's going to be going to Kindercare, and they have a preschool program there. I think she'll learn more there, because she'll be in prek all day instead of just two and a half hours. I haven't told her yet, because I dont' want her to tell the kids at school. I'm going to try to leave her in for the month of October. They still have the Halloween party that she really wants to go to, and they have the pumpkin patch..I really want her to be part of all of that. They also have class pictures..which she is part of the class..and I want her to get one! Anyways, big changes are coming our way for our family. I haven't worked a day job in a very long time. The kids have NEVER been to daycare..so this is really wierd for us all. But change is good, and I think it's good I'm going back to work. Right now, they twins are too wild for me to really take them on adventures. They both want to run opposite directions..and they just make it impossible. All we do is stay at home anymore.. I think they'll have a lot more fun at day care. I think when they get home we'll enjoy the time we have together much much more! I also think the house will stay cleaner because we aren't here to mess it up all day. We'll see on that one ;) I'm really loving my crock pot on busy days, and I think that's probably how I'll be making meals this whole fall and winter. Especially since I'm going to be working during the day and then I still have school at night! Crazy, our schedule is going to be just crazy!

So I think that I am addicted to life changing. I'm always finding new ways to make our routine change. It's really changed recently, and honestly I kind of wish it would go back to being simple. Mikhail is in school full time. It's crazy, the week flies by..and I feel like he's never here. Our days center around him going to school. Makenna is in prek three days a week in the morning, which is a little rough. I'm not used to having to get these kids up and ready first thing in the morning. Makenna also has dance on Monday night, which I absolutely love :) It's my favorite day of the week. I love to see her get dressed up and to see how excited she is to go. It's our special time together every week! I have class two nights a week and alllll day saturday. I do like going to my class. I've learned so much already. I just miss my family when I'm in class all day on Saturday. I miss having my Saturdays to go do fun things with them. It litterally feels like we have something scheduled every day of the week. On top of it, I start all these hobbies..I love having my little things to do on the side..but lately I don't feel like I have time for them either. And to be crazier and to make things more, I'm going to get a part- time to full time job. The kids are going to be in school, and I need to help out in any way I can. Plus I think it would be good for me to get out of the house. I know as soon as I get a job, I'll probably wish I didn't work and I didn't go to school again..but you just have to roll with whatever direction life takes you in.

The kids are getting smarter and smarter on me everyday. This morning Mikhail and Makenna were drawing and coloring. And Mikhail started asking me how to spell things, and he ended up spelling Mom, Pap, Mimi, and Dad. I was having him sound the words out and then spell them. I was really amazed at how well he was doing! He's learning so much. So is Makenna. She is so artistic. I love how she turns her letters into animals. They are both just so creative. I love to see how their drawing evolves too. They always get better and better at it.

Makenna loves going to prek so much <3 I love to see how excited she is to go. I always go early to see her sing with her class, and she does all the hand movements. She doesn't always get all of the words, but she pays attention..and it's absolutely adorable. She really pays attention. Last Wed. when I went to pick her up, they said the kids had used ink to make pictures. They were only supposed to use one finger to do the pictures, but some of the kids got really messy with it. If the kids got messy with it, they didn't listen. When Makenna came out of her class, she only had one little finger with ink on it. I was so proud of her to see that she was listening in class. She's a really good student ;) I can't wait until we get to do parent teacher conferences and I can really talk to her teachers about how she's doing. I hate that her teachers don't really like to talk to me about her. I feel like this expierence is so different than it was with Mikhail. When I took Mikhail, all the parents chatted and the teachers were so friendly..this time, no one talks to me and the teachers don't socialize :( As long as she's having fun, that's all that matters!

Madelyn and Maddox had a person from Help Me Grow come to evaluate them. I know that they are two and they aren't talking, so that's kind of a concern. But of course once they come out to check them for speech and I tell them they don't say anything at all, they start talking lol. Maddox has been yelling 'Dada' & saying 'No!' and he points. It's absolutely adorable :) Madelyn was leaving my Mom's house the other night and she was trying to say 'Mimi' and she said, 'MmmmmmaMmmmmma' it was cute. She really tried to say it. I also heard Maddox say, Sissy ;) He's going to be talking soon. They are both absolutely sweet. They love to hug and kiss. Mady always kisses the side of Daddy's cheek. He loves it, he thinks it's so sweet. She gives the best hugs too. She really squeezes when she hugs :) Maddox clicks his tounge when he wants to kiss me. I really love that. I'll be leaving his room for him to go to sleep, and I'll hear his toung clicking and I'll have to go back in to give him a kiss :) I don't mind though, I'll kiss him a million times! Today he really cracked me up. He tackled Mikhail and straddled him and gave him lots of kisses. Then all the sudden his rotten butt bit him! He's so rotten. Now he knows how to climb over the baby gates. I can't trust him to be downstairs anymore. Everytime I do, I find him walking around the middle level. He's so wild! We are going to be moving again when our lease is up here. We are definately moving out to the country. For the first time in a long time, I actually want a ranch. I'd really like one with a basement. But I don't like all the stairs at this house. I get sick of climbing baby gates, I get sick of all the different levels, one would be nice :) I'm also starting to weed through all thier toys to donate them. I have to learn to let things go. I hold onto everything...and it really clicked the other day when my mother in law was over..she said, none of thier toys are important to them because they have so many. And I totally agree. I really need to start getting rid of things. They shouldn't have so much stuff. I need to limit thier amount of toys, so they appericiate what they have. Anywayss now I'm really side tracking!

Madelyn and Maddox are getting a lot closer again :) I LOVE it! They used to be like that when they were little babies, and they are getting back to that. They love to sleep in the same bed and share pillows and share blankets. They are so sweet. They are starting to hold hands and give kisses..I abosolutely adore it! I look at Madelyn and see so much of Makenna in her, I also see my Mom in her. I don't know if it's her expressions or her looks, but I think she probably looks a lot like my Mom did when she was little. Maddox really looks a lot like Mikhail. I can't believe how much his little looks changed once he got his hair cut.

Ohh and I forget if I blogged about him swallowing a penny or not..but ya he definately did. Of course Maddox did. He doesn't every rotten thing..like getting stictches twice before he even turned two, and learning to climb baby gates, and eating dirty money..and just being the rotten little man that totally melts my heart. There's definately never a dull moment with him ;)

Ohh and the last thing that I'm going to blog about tonight is that today we went apple picking at Lynd's Fruit Farm :) It was the best day we've had in a long time! The weather was perfect, the apples were so yummy and the kids had tons of fun! Really couldn't have asked for a better day <3 Mady is my little Mady Appleseed! I think that little lady would live off apples if we let her. And I think the kids definately ate thier weight in apples today. The just had a blast ;) I love fall and fall fun! Pumpkin patch is next :)

So at the last house I couldn't stand how Mikhail and Makenna had to share a room and the twins had to share a room. I couldn't wait to move to this house and for the girls to be in the same room and the boys..I wanted them to have a gender approptraite room..but it looks like that's not happening. Maddox is way too wild. And he's the reason Mikhail and Makenna have to sleep in our room. So today I got the big kids room all cleaned up and Makenna all moved in and Maddox all moved out. I feel bad because the babies room is a wreck..but I'll get it fixed up for them. I also feel bad that Makenna's room looks like a boy's room. I'm trying to add some things to it to make it feel a little girly for her, but still comfortable for Mikhail. I actually ordered him some army wall stickers..because if you know him..he's absolutely army crazy. I ordered Makenna butterfly stickers :) Ever since her first room at the townhouse she's wanted butterfly stickers like the ones she had. The ones I ordered her are more realistic looking...I hope she'll like them :) I'm also getting them the glow in the dark planets and stars..haha so classic. I told them we'd put a desk in thier room so they could do school work and do art work..they are really excited about that. That's a big kid thing and something they can't have with the babies in thier room. I also told Makenna I would get my lava lamp and black light from my parents house..they'll love it! Ohh and I'm moving thier tv, dvd player, and video games up there, along with books and hopefully getting Makenna a dollhouse soon! The room is so little..it's hard to think that all that along with two beds will fit in there..but it definately will! And it's going to be their own personal amazing space. I would really love to paint the room..but they like it the way it is and that's all that matters. I always think rooms need 'themes' but they really don't...all they need is what the kids want and like in there. I also didn't really realize how dependent Mikhail and Makenna were on each other. They both had to sleep in my room even though it was easy to sneak Makenna in her room because Mady sleeps through anything...but she'd never want to sleep in there because she was so used to sleeping with Mikhail. At the next house they will for sure have seperate rooms..they'll be too old to share. Hopefully our next house will have four or more rooms..but who knows.

Ohh and Mady was crying so I went in to check on her..and she was trying to crawl into bed with Maddox..so it will be interesting to see where they end up falling asleep tonight. Maddox isn't happy about me making him go to bed..and he's keeping Mady awake. But it's just something we are going to have to work out and deal with because we only have three bedrooms upstairs.

Ugh I'm already having the same problems with Mikhail and Makenna that I was having before that were driving me crazy at the other house..they are up there playing and they aren't going to sleep..it's just something I'm going to have to deal with

So it's only 839am and I already feel like so much has happened in my day that I need to blog about it. If my morning was this exciting..I can't wait to see what the rest of the day holds for us! Everyone slept in today. I had a really hard time getting up. But finally I did get up and it was before everyone else for once. I decided not to shower right away and just let the kids sleep in as long as they would. When Mikhail finally got up it was about 7am and his bus comes at 740am..so we were rushing a little bit. But I got his lunch packed. He insisted on having a pb&j, apple sauce, and a little debbie just like I used to have when I was little :) He had been begging to pack his lunch..so Tim went out at like midnight last night and got him a Spiderman lunch box which he absolutely loved! And I made his lunch this morning. I bought this dinosaur cutter to make his sandwhich look like two dinosaurs and it takes the crust off..which he's not a crust eater. I also got him a hard case for his sandwhich so it wouldn't get smashed. His case had a skate boarder on it..so I think he's going to think he's got a cool lunch :) We had to pack today because I didn't think he'd like what they were serving.

His Noni came over this morning and brought him a special treat for his day. She froze a gogurt and by the time he has his snack it should be unthawed for him. He got a kick out of that. It was red day at his school today. All the kids in his class are supposed to wear red because that's the color they are going to be focusing on..and Anne told him that's her faveorite day..it made him feel pretty special!

Anyways I waited at the bus stop with him like I do every morning. When he got on the bus he took forever to find a seat. I'm going to have to talk to him about that because I'm sure it drives the bus driver crazy..and then he chose a seat that already had two boys in it. lol he's still learning..but I'll have to talk to him about it. Then as soon as the bus left I drove to his school to make sure he got off the bus ok and into the cafe for breakfast. Yesterday when I got to the school, he hadn't gotten off of the bus yet..so I waited for him and walked him in. Today by the time I got to the school he had already gotten off the bus and went into the school. So I walked to the cafe to look for him and he was already standing in line talking to some other boys that were in line. I was so proud of him for knowing what to do and doing it. So since I had checked on him and knew he was fine I went to talk to his teacher. I wanted to make sure she knew that he packed his lunch and that it was in his book bag because I didn't think he would remember. She told me that for half of the day they'll be switching Mikhails teacher because him and the other boys are too rowdy..so they are going to try to break their group up. So in the am he'll still have Mrs. Peer and in the pm he'll have Mrs. Steager. I feel bad that he's being like that. But I told her that we couldn't send Mikhail to prek last year and explained about having the twins..and how it was just too hard. He probably could have used that structure to prepare him. But she said a lot of kids didn't do prek and that he would be fine. I know this week will probably be hard for him. He's not used to getting up so early in the morning and being active all day, but I know he'll get the hang of it and it will become part of his daily routine. I definately think that putting him in the all day class was the best decision for him. If he's playing for so much of the class already..he wouldn't have been getting very much from the half day. Atleast now he has more time to learn things.

After I talked to his teacher I went back to check on him and he was sitting a table full of boys with his lunch tray and he was laughing and eating with them. It was the cutest thing ever! He's so little yet he's such a big boy! Really melted my heart! I think he's going to be ok ;) I think tomorrow I can let him get on the bus without following him to school.

While I was gone this morning taking Mikhail to school, Makenna picked up the living room for me. Maddox had made a mess wiith my candle lids and she picked them all up without me telling her to. Then when I brought the babies down..they wanted a juice box just like her..so she sat down with them and and opened them for them. Maddox had gotten them out of the fridge..and I was holding Mady..he remembered to get her one too. I thought that was so sweet! You can definately tell he's a twin! But both of the babies sat down infront of Makenna and patiently waited for her to put the straw in thier juice box..it was adorable! She's really being a great helper. I love that she's taking on that role. She's taking on the big kid role now that Mikhail's in school all day and she's the big kid. I'm really proud of her! It's weird how much our day has changed with Mikhail going to school. Makenna does really have any one to fight with..so she's not crying all day and the babies are calmer..and the day is just over all quieter. I miss him like crazy though. I can't imagine what it will be like when Makenna starts full day school!

Ohh and I don't know what we are going to do about the room situation at this house. At first Maddox wouldn't stop opening his door so we had to put a door knob lock on it. Well that did the trick for that. Maddox has pretty much had that room all to himself the whole time because he sleeps right behind the door with his ear to the floor and anytime he sees you walk by his room under the crack in his door or hears you he cries. Well I couldn't sneak Mikhail in the room like I had planned because Max slept right behind the door and would wake up the second I opened it. So the big kids were falling asleep in my bed and then Tim would move them to the floor. I hate them sleeping on the floor..they don't mind it, but I don't think it's fair. Well yesterday Maddox climbed the latter of the bunk bed..and he had the fan going in his room..he can't sleep in there any more. It's too dangerous. I just don't know what I'm going to do about the sleep arrangements anymore. I guess I'm going to have to put Mady and Max in the same room again..but Mady sleeps more than he does and I know he's just going to mess with her. Putting him in a pack n play does nothing because he climbs right out of it..so I can't put him in that in my room..there's way to much for him to get into in my room. It's just really hard. We really need atleast four bedrooms. I sware the second you think you have one thing figured out in this family..it all changes and there's a whole new set of problems!

Today was Mikhail's second day of school..but really it was his first full day of school. He had his whole class there with him today. The first day he went it was only a third of his class. I can't help but to worry about him going. I'm so used to watching over him all the time, it's hard to let go of control and trust someone I've never met before to really take care of him. But I know this is all part of growing up and it's just the first year of many to come. Anyways, I let Mikhail get on the bus this morning and I drove to the school with Makenna to watch him get off the bus and make sure he knew where to go. When he got off the bus he looked a little confused, but I understood. It's overwhelming to get off the buss and see everyone from Kindergartners to fifth graders and parents and teachers everywhere. But that's why I went to make sure he knew where to go. He likes to go eat breakfast in the morning. I hate to rush him, but he eats slow. He's just not used to it. We've always had a really relaxed morning, so to have to go with the schools schedule must be a hard adjustment for him. Makenna came with me. She was so excited to see his school. So she sat in the cafe and waited with Bubby. She cannot wait until next year when she gets to go. I noticed a lot of the boys looking at her. She's so pretty! And she so social, she won't have any problem with school when she goes. And soon she'll be going to prek. But after Mikhail ate his breakfast he went to school. I couldn't help but to look at the clock all day and count down the time until he'd be home. I miss him so much while he's at school. It's wierd just him being gone how quieter and less stressed out I feel. I kind of feel a little guilty about it. But Makenna plays by her self well and the twins play together. There's really not much fighting.

Today I actually got to see him get off the bus. After what happened the last time..this was the first time I actually got to see him get off the bus. He seemed so big! I could see all of the big kids getting off of the bus, but I could barely see Mikhail over the top of the seats. He's so small compared to the rest of the kids. When he got off he looked so tired, but the first thing he said was that he got off at the right stop :) He was really proud of himself and he knows his address. He's pretty confident that he won't ever get off at the wrong stop again and that makes me feel a lot better. I was really anxious to see him get off of the bus that I went out like 15 minutes early to wait for him. I sat out there in the 90 something degree heat and waited for him..and I'll do it again tomorrow. I love that little man so much! I love to see all the new things he's doing with his life and all the new adventures. I love to see him laughing with his new buddies. This is a really exciting time in his life! I'm glad that I get to go on this ride with him! I felt so bad though, when he got off the bus he was SO tired! I could see the look written all over his face...pure exhaustion. He was absolutely tired. He's not used to having to follow the school routine the whole day. He said he got to play outside 3 times today. I wish he could tell me more about his day..but he's a typical boy and he just remembers playing and wants to play video games when he gets home.

Mikhail's first day of school..our adventure from begining to the end (of his school day)

I had to wake up at 630am..which is nearly impossible for me. But I'm going to have to start doing it all the time..because that's when I have to get up in order to get everyone ready for school. In doing so, I accidently woke up the whole house..oopss! So everyone's day was off. But Mikhail did a really good job of getting up and getting ready for school. He was upset that I had to take off his bandages from his shots..but other than that we didn't have a problem. I did plan on him eating breakfast at school..and time was running short so we didn't do breakfast at home.

I stood outside with Mikhail and waited for the bus..and it dawned on me how big he really is. He's SO big! He's a school aged kid now..he will be there for the next 13 years and it's unbelievable to me. It's amazing too..this is a whole new step in our life. So when the school bus came he got on and I got to ride with him too..which I thought was a way neat expierence. My friend Sara and her little boy rode the bus with us too and they became buddies :)

When we got off of the bus, Tim's Mom was there waiting for us and she was teary eyed and it made me teary eyed. Mikhail was so happy to see her when he got off of the bus. She walked into the school with us and to the cafe so Mikhail could eat breakfast. He wasn't really crazy about what they were serving..but he got to sit with his friend Cole and he thought that was pretty neat. I love seeing him make new friends! After they ate breakfast he went to his class. He was a little late from eating..but he got a pass so it excused him for being late. After that Anne and I had to leave. She game me a ride home :) I thought it was so sweet of her to be there for that!

It was so weird. Definately felt like someone was missing all day. LoL on a good note the house was quiet. But we missed him like crazy! Makenna talked about him all day and built him towers for when he got home. I never really realized that from her first day, her and Mikhail did EVERYTHING together..so for him to leave the house at about 740 and not get home until after 230, that has to be hard for her! I think it's making thier relationship btter though because they treat each other better when they get home!

While Mikhail was at school I spent the day with Makenna. We went to the candle supply store which she loves to go to. But when we got there it was closed...so to kill time we went to Family Dollar..which WOW! The one out there is so much nicer than the one we have here! Makenna found the same silky beaty that she's inlove with..so we HAD to buy it for her. I also bought her a puzzle for us to do together while Mikhail's in school. And I had to spoil her with new hair bows and tooth brushes. I love to spoil her! After our mini shopping spree we went back to the candle store and had fun shopping. I sware I could spend so much money in there! But I really need to start making money before I invest any more. I feel like with school coming up, I might be biting off more than I can chew ;/ It could be bad lol!

By the time we got home, I was really looking forward to doing the puzzle with Makenna, but with all the excitement she went right to bed..the babies did too. So I worked on my candles..because I really want to have an open house tomorrow to sell them. Anyways, the quiet time was nice. But I couldn't wait for Mikhail to get off the buss. Tim and I both wanted to be there to see him get off..so since Makenna and Max were sleeping..we took Mady out with us and waited. We chatted with one of the neighbors who was waiting for her child to get off of the bus. I saw all the kids stand up to get off..and Mikhail wasn't standing up. I figured he just wasn't paying attention, so after all the kids got off I went up and told the bus driver Mikhail's name...she called it and no answer. The kids were saying he wasn't on the bus. I freaked out and checked every seat and he wasn't there. The driver had no idea where he was and said she was going to call the other buses to see if he got on the wrong one, so she pulled over to start doing that. Once she pulled over, Sara pulled up in the drive way with Mikhail in her car. I guess Mikhail thought he could get off at Cole's stop and they would walk up the hill to our house..I can't believe the bus driver let him off. When I asked her where my kid was she acted annoyed! I was so mad but just really thankful he was ok. All I could think about were the things that could have happened to him and it was enough to drive me crazy!

I felt bad because I think with all my ranting and raving about it I made him feel like some how it was his fault..which in no shape or form was it. It's the bus ddrivers reponsiblity to get those kids home safe..and if she can't do that..she needs to find another line of work! So I have to go in tomorrow and have a talk with them and ensure that that will never happen again. I don't want her to get fired I just want her to pay better attention. Mikhail isn't replaceable. He's my one and only Mikhail and I expect him to always be safe!

He told me that he didn't really like his school and he hates the bus. I asked why he didn't like school and they said they don't feed him enough..so I may have to start packing his lunch...I don't think he's getting enough to eat and it's just affecting the rest of his day. He made me a kissing hand and told me I could use it whenever I needed it..it's basically a kiss from him I'll always have. They read the book in class, and I'd really like to get it for him. I just hate how tight money is right now..I would love to buy them the world! He did say that he's excited to go back on Monday and he can't wait to have another play date with Cole! I'm glad he's found a friend. Cole lives just right down the street..so I'm sure we'll be walking down there a lot lol.

Over all he had a really good day...minus the buss mixup..but I have make sure I get it figured out, because this can never happen again!

Mikhail Paul Jurkovacs first day of class August 25th 2010 Chapelfield elementary Mrs. Peers class...offically a big boy!

Well I decided I better blog about the last three exciting things that have happened before the twins bday party tonight, because I'll of course need to write about that too :P The twins celebrated their 2nd birthday! The day before we went to AHA. That's where I took them last year for thier first birthday :) They really love it there! I'm sad because our pass is expired now and we probably won't get to go that much any more. I love to see them explore and play..it's the best family day when we go! But atleast we got to go one last time.

On their birthday we had a suprise birthday party to go to for my uncle Tim..so we decided to wait to do cake and ice cream for the twins. But we took them to Blendon Woods for lunch and to play. Mikhail was with my parents school shopping..so he didn't get to go. But we didn't even get to stay that long before it started raining :( I had forgot Max's shoes..so he had to wear some of Mady's sparkly pink sandles. Tim wasn't very happy about it but I thought it was halarious! Max didn't even notice and he thought it was cool they made clicky noises. But since it started raining we took them to the mall to play. We still don't have our double stroller so they had to walk the whole time. They did pretty good..but it completely wore them out! They played in the play place like big kids..they shock me how big they are getting!

After that Maddox went to the Church picnic with Anne and we took the rest of the kids to Uncle Tim's party which was a lot of fun.

Sunday we took Mikhail and Makenna to Kings Island. I feel like that trip needs it's own blog entirely. Makenna was so funny..she was so scared of every ride and didn't want to do any of them. She cried the whole way through the line every time..and they we had to make her get on. A lot of them she ended up liking after she did them. She loved the kids water park with thier little water slides. Even though she was scared of some of the stuff..she still did it..and she walked the whole park without crying very much. Mikhail is definately a ride warrior! That kid loved every ride and wanted to always do one more. He can't wait to go back. It was the best family time and a great way to wrap up the summer.

Yesterday was Mikhail's school meetings. He got to meet his teacher and take a walk around the school. He can't wait to go! I can't believe his first day is tomorrow! He's such a big boy. He had to get his five year old shots yesterday and he cried a lot :( I felt bad for him. I didn't expect him to react that way. He screamed 'bloody murder' as he said. He was very sensitive about it. But I told him he had to do it to go to school. Poor guy.

But I guess enough writing for now..I really have to finish cleaning the house and have nooo energy..but we have people coming over tonight, so it needs to be done :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUBS!

So I've spent my night printing my blogs from myspace. Wow I have a lot of blogs! I have a feeling that myspace isn't going to be around much longer..and I would be devestated if something happened to all my record keeping ;) I'm going to put them together in a book for the kids to read some day. I just feel bad that I haven't been keeping up lately like I used to.

Today was a really fun day for the kids and I. Our pass to AHA is expiring this weekend, so I wanted to take the kids ones last time before it expires. It was a blast! I love watching the kids go wild and have fun. Mikhail of course played guns the whole time and he chased around his Chubbies. Mady and Max were everywhere..but I have to say the water is thier favorite. Makenna is my little dress up queen :) I love seeing her play dress up! The kids really love it there. If we can come up with the money I would love to renew our pass there. It's just so hard since Mikhail is starting school this fall and will be there five days a week..there's really not much of an opp for us to go. I'll be in school on Sat. too. So we probably won't be able to go that often.

I can't believe by babies are getting ready to turn two! I was just going through and printing blogs. I only made it to Feb 07 and haven't even gotten to the part where we found out we were having twins, and they are already turning two! They are so amazing! I can't believe I was scared when I found out I was pregnant with them. I remember thinking I wasn't sure how I was going to do it. But I love every minute of it..even the crazy ones! They are amazing little people. I really love to see how they are bonding with thier bigger sibs. Makenna and Mady really love to play together. And Max is right up Mikhail's ally playing with guns. He kisses Mikhail all the time too. I just know they are always going to be the best of friends <3

Life definately has it's ups and downs..but with my babies it's all ups all the time <3

Ohh and Mr. Max got his second set of stitches before he was even two. He fell out on the deck the other day and had to get three more stitches..puts his total up to 7 before he was even two. I think it's crazy none of the other kids have ever done anything crazy like him and he's just wild! I think the people at Urgent Care were a little skeptical with me when I went in yesterday and just a few minutes of seeing how wild he was running around..they just understood that he's a mad man and accident prone lol! I sware the kid runs on his tip toes and is always a step ahead of himself.

Anyways, I gotta get up and take thier pictures in the middle of the night, so I better get to bed ;) More tomorrow!

HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY LIL CHUBBIES!!!!!!!

Today was the first busy day we've had in a really long time. It's been soo hott outside and so hard to take the kids anywhere. Then everyday I think I want to go do something, there's a crazy heat advisory and I don't want to take the kids out in it. But today Timmy suprised me and took us to DQ for lunch! It was so fun! The kids were so cute and so good for me :) I LOVED watching them sit in the seats and spin..I was a little worried the twins wouldn't do well because there were no high chairs. But they sat in the chairs just like big kids. I thought Max..of course being my wildest child ever would run all around the place, but he hardly tried to even get out of his chair. Mady was actually the more wild one, but she was still really good. Max ate a ton of food. He loved when I handed my ice cream over to him and let him go at it with his own spoon..it was adorable! Mikhail and Makenna were loving it! They had hott dogs and got to have thier own ice cream. Mikhail had strawberry and Makenna chose chocolate. I really love that they choose thier own flavors and don't just get what the other one's getting. But it was a really fun lunch :) We were planning to take the kids to creekwalk..but Tim had to work..so we had to go :( I had planned to take the kids back after the babies had a nap..but it just didn't happen. So I walked with Mikhail and Makenna to Chapelfield to let them play on the playground..Mikhail got to ride his bike which made his day. Tim drove the babies down to the park and met us there. When Max got out of the van his expression was priceless! He was so happy to be there, so was Madelyn! We played until it got dark and it was the best family time ever. It's been a really long time since we've all gotten out and had some fun together like that. We used to do it all the time when Mikhail was little and when Makenna was little..but once we had the twins, life just got a lot busier and we haven't been doing it as often as we should. It was a lot of fun..and I want to do it a lot more before the weather gets too cold to do it any more. It's still really hard to believe that there's only one week left of the summer. On Monday I'm going to start getting into the school routine with them. I'm going to get up early and get breakfast and get them all dressed and take them to the Y every day of the week to start getting ready for having to wake up and get the big kids ready for school. Ahhh I remember when my parents used to do that to my brother and I..and now I finally understand it!

Tomorrow is the last day of Makenna's first dance class ;( I'm going to miss taking her every week. I love how cute she looks in her clothes and how excited she is to go. I love going to the thrift store and finding goodies..and I love talking to all the other parents while we wait for our girls! I'm not sure if I'm going to send her to JD or Pinelle for the fall. I really like JD because we already went there this time..and it's right by the thrift store..and I know a lot of the other mom's are going to be sending their kids there in the fall...but I want Makenna to do competion dancing. Pinelle makes the girls try out before compition and JD doesn't. I don't want her to compete with girls who aren't putting thier whole heart into it the way I know Makenna will. So I will probably switch her. I just don't know if Pinelle will make her take beginning dance again..I don't want her to have to repeat what she just took. But I'm really excited for tomorrow..we get to actually sit in and watch the class. I can't wait to see how she does..and you know I will be taking lots of video and pictures!

I kind of can't wait for school to start. I know I'm going to regret wishing away the nice weather. Fall goes way too fast, and I absolutely hate the winter time. But I'm excited to have some structure once again. Makenna is going to be going to prek Mon, Wed, and Fri and Mikhail will be going to school full day. Since I have to get the kids up and ready to take the big kids to school, I might as well take the twins to the y and then pick up Makenna come home for lunch and naps and get the house cleaned and dinner started and everything ready for the next day to do it all over again..ahh seems like a lot but I know the stucture will be nice to help me get through the day better.

I really want to go back to school in the fall as well. I don't know if that will actually happen or not. I just started thinking about it again, and there's a lot I have to do to make that happen. My parents offered to fully help me with the kids so I could go. But that's just one more thing to add to my pile of to do. It's been soo long since I've been in school, I don't know if I can do it. I want to try though. I feel like I need a challenge and some time away from the house..just to help with stress. I just don't know what Tim's back to school schedule is going to look like and if it's really possible. I might have to wait until next fall..I'll be a little sad putting it off for another year.

WOW! My twins are almost TWO! I can't believe it..I still think of them as being just about one. I can't believe two years have almost passed. I was getting them dressed for bed tonight and watching them be all crazy and I was thinking..wow, when Mikhail was twenty four months old, I had a ten month old also..I don't know how I did it..and how I was able to add new born twins to the mix when Makenna was just a little older than two and Mikhail was three. It's really funny how we just adapt to things. They are changing so much all the time! Madelyn loveees to read books. She's always bringing them to me and she likes to point to things in them. Her faveorite bed time book is an Elmo one and she likes to find Elmo in all the pictures. Tim has taught her to say UH OH and it's the cutest ever! She also likes to "Whop" Tim on the head! Every time I tell her to whop him..she gets her fist ready and she whops him on the head. I think it's absolutely halarious. She also has a 'get mad' or 'get mean' face that cracks me up and she grunts like crazy! I just love her little personality :) She likes to fight because she sees Tim doing that with the big kids and how they laugh and play and she wants to be apart of that. She's still Daddy's girl..but she likes to Whop him! Maddox is my boy all the way still. He's a kisser and a lover and hates to go to sleep. Drives me nuts every night at bed time. She sits in his room and screams and watches for you under the door. He's a big old fit thrower. He still hasn't had his first hair cut..which he desperately needs..but I love his blonde curls..he's my little surfer boy and I love it! Tim wants to get it all cut off and that's going to break my heart! He's such a boy and he's Mikhail's best friend and I love it. He loves to kiss on Mikhail and he's really into playing with cars and trucks. I know him and Mikhail are going to have a lot of fun together being Buds :)

School!

I know it's Sunday and they don't deliver mail today..so I must have gotten it yesterday and just didn't check..but I got Mikhail's school info today! Wow things have changed a lot since I was in school. They are only sending a third the kindergartners to school at a time. Mikhail's first day will be Aug 25th but then he won't go back until Aug 30th. And they said I could ride the bus with him! But they said they aren't offering transportation home..lol that's ok..I can walk back! It's not that far :) I'm really glad they are offering to let us ride the bus with them..because I'm a little worried that Mikhail won't know what to do on the bus. It will be exciting! They also haven't assigned him to a teacher yet. They are going to test all the students and then do thier assements after that. That's kind of crazy! I remember when I was a kid, you just had a teacher. I remember going to Goshen Lane every summer and it was taped to the window..it was always fun to go find your name and teacher on the list. There's also a couple meetings on the 23rd I'll get to go to. That's exciting also! He's super pumped about going to school. I know he's going to love it! I hope he makes lots of friends and has lots of fun everyday. I'm going to miss my little man while he's away ;(

Today was my Daddy's 51st bday! I was talking to him and I asked him if he realized that 30 years ago today he was having his first legal 'whole' beer..because they used to have that 2/3 beer or whatever it was back then. And it was just crazy thinking that someday..I'm going to hopefully be looking back and thinking WOW..The things he's seen and accomplished in his life thus far is incredible. He has an amazing loving wife, two children, and four beautiful grandchildren <3 I really love my daddy :) I truely think that both of my parents have the biggest hearts ever! I've never seen two people give so much of themselves and ask so little in return. I started making soy candles and selling them to ear a little money outside of being a stay at home mom. My dad 'lent' me a hundred dollars to get going..and today he told me that was his investment into my business. I didn't expect that out of him..but he's always doing sweet things like that for me. And I'm always so greatful..I really hope he knows that! I think he and my Mom are my biggest fans. They are always so supportive! They really are amazing people <3 I'm a lucky lucky girl!

I went shopping today to get my dad a little present for his bday. We got him a sleeveless Browns shirt :) As soon as I saw it, I just thought of him. The kids were so excited to give it to him..though Mikhail is torn between being a Browns fan and a Steelers fan. I'm obviously a Browns fan and Tim is a Steelers fan..so Mikhail always says he's just a Buckeye's fan..lol I think that's his neutral team. He's a smart kid! I got a brown gift bag and let the kids draw on it. Mikhail drew him and Paps and Mimis on the front. He was going to draw Sis on the front..but he messed up, so he crossed it out and drew her on the back. On the front he drew grass under each of the people..because they were camping. And he drew a piece of cake in Mikhail's hand and a piece that Mimi and Paps were sharing. He also drew a sun with a smiling face :) it was so sweet! On the back he drew him and Makenna holding hands, she added balloons and drew a picture of me also <3 I love thier pictures and listening to the explain thier art work. Mikhail wrote Paps name at the top of his card. Max bumped the table when he was writting it and messed up his 's' so Mikhail crossed that 's' out and wrote a better 's' :) He's such a prefectionist! He also signed Mikhail, Makenna, Maddy, (and) Max at the bottom and finished it off with 'xoxo' for 'I love you hugs and kisses' I was really proud of all his writting! They were both really proud of thier pictures and his card! They love birthdays, they are really special <3

When I was at the store today, I got them some more color pencils. They are really loving drawing and writting. I want to put a desk in thier room so they can sit up there and have some quiet time. It's just so hard with them having to share a room with the babies. It's hard for them to have big kid stuff when the babies are able to be in there and mess with thier big kid stuff. I really wish I could have two more rooms in this house. I don't know what to do. Even if I put the big kids together..the babies can't really share a room. They would never sleep..they would just mess with each other the whole time. ahh what to do what to do...

I got Mikhail some new shirts at the store today, and he was so proud of them! I love that he's so greatful when I buy him things. He really loved the shirts. He was showing them off every time someone came over today. One of them had rock n roll guitars on them..which he loved. Another one had a scull and the other had dirtbikes! He's all boy <3 I can't believe he's going to school soon. It's really wierd to think that he's going to be in public school and not just pre school. I keep thinking of all the things he'll need and want. I want him to have cool clothes and shoes...when in the past we always just let him rock crocks or whatever was easiest. But I want him to have cool shoes and cool clothes. I know it doesn't really matter in kindergarten..but still :P

And Makenna is so girly, I'm having a blast shopping for her! She loves all the super girly stuff and all the accessories. She's so different than I used to be. I used to be very girly when I was littler..wouldn't wear anything but dresses...but then I turned pretty tom boyish..she's anything but. Except she can hold her own wrestling with the boys. Wlep..it's been a bunch of crazy rambling I'm insanely bored now that the house is quiet and everyone is sleeping. I was going to work on my OSU candles..but I'll have to wait until tomorrow..it's getting too late to dive into that tonight

So I love to complain in a blog and get it all out and then delete it :) Makes me feel better! I'm having a bit of a rough morning..but hopefully things will get better soon. I'm going to start walking atleast once a day again. That always makes me feel really good. Timmy went out last night and got Bear a new collar and a new leash because he out grew his. I love that it's starting to get cooler at night :)

I can't believe summer is almost over. I'm sad about it. I was telling Tim how sad I was the other day and how guilty I've been feeling about not taking the kids anywhere lately..and he made me feel a little better about it. It's been so hard this summer to take the twins anywhere. Last summer it was so easy..I guess that's why it feels so hard this summer. Last summer they weren't walking. They would just sit in the stroller and watch the big kids do everything..They only crawled so it was easy to go places. This summer, they don't want to sit in the stroller. They both just scream any time we go anywhere and expect them to sit in the stroller. They can't stand heat either..which that makes it hard because this summer has been insanely hott. Hopefully this will be a nice fall. I'm getting a new stroller since mine broke. It's hard not having one right now. But my new one should be here within the next week :) When Mikhail and Makenna are in school I'll be able to take them on long walks outside. And I'll be able to get around more. I really want to spend special time with Makenna while he's in school too because this will be my last year with her that she's not in full time school. It will be easier for her to understand that when Mikhail's not in school we need to spend special time with him and take him places by him self.

It's so wierd. My whole life is going to change yet again this fall. I feel like that's all my life is, is a constant change. For the past five years I got pregnant and moved constantly. The kids are always doing something different...whether it's a different school or sport ect..This summer is going to be a really big change for us with Mikhail starting public school. I seriously can't believe it's almost that time! I wish I could go back and relive the last five years..I wouldn't change a thing, I just wish I could hold him as my newborn again..and go to his first birthday again..and see him meet his baby sister for the first time again. I wish I could go back to the day he felt the babies kick for the first time and called them his little Chubbies :) I wish I could take him to his first day of preschool again, I would love to relive Disney and see all the magic in his face. I wish I could go to his first tball game again. I wish I could do a lot of things again. Life just passes you buy so fast it doesn't seem fair. But I'm greatful for the first time :)

Anyways...well Mikhail and Makenna are spending some time in thier room because they just couldn't get along and I was sick of dealing with it. The babies are playing on the sun pourch..so hopefully after everyone has a little quiet time..the day will get better!

I used to..

I used to blog all the time. I think about it from time to time and say, 'later I'm going to blog about this' and I never do :/ I need to change that! I don't know if any one ever even reads them anymore..but I really love going back and rereading them myself. Anyways, so the catch up blog..

Maddox and Madleyn are sleeping in big kid beds now! We didn't even do the toddler bed..they just went straight to big kid beds. Mady did so well with it. I love going in to check on her. She's always curled up on her pillow and covered up with her silky. She never really tosses and turns. She looks so peaceful when she sleeps! Max on the other hand never wants to sleep. It's always a battle with him. I've learned that I just have to put him in his bed and shut the door and let him cry if he's ever going to go to sleep. He always gets out of bed and lays right behind the door and the second I open it to check on him..I bump into him and wake him up...smart little booger! But he makes it pretty impossible to put Mikhail in there..so the poor kid pretty much just sleeps on the floor in our room every night. I'm thinking about setting up a twin bed in there so he can sleep on that. I can transfer Makenna to her room with no problem..but poor Mikhail! Max is freaking halarious. He's figured out that if he gets really low to the floor he can look underneath the door to see what I'm doing. So anytime I go downstairs to do laundry, he lays down right behind the door and watches and cries for me to come up the stairs! I think he also does that when I lay him down to go to sleep.

The babies are getting so smart! Anytime I tell them to do something the turn right around and do it. They aren't really talking much..but thier ability to follow directions shows me they are learning. I know they will talk on thier own time..so I don't get upset about it. They are my babies..I probably baby them a little too much and that's why they don't talk..but that's ok. I'm in no hurry for them to grow up on me!

Haha so of course..I'm writing about what a good little sleeper Mady Jae is..and the tv gets quiet for a minute and I hear her crying. I went up there and she had been sleeping on the floor and must have woke up. She was still pretty out of it..but she just wanted back in her bed :)

Anyways, Tim taught Mady to say, "uh oh" and it's the cutest thing ever! She really makes her mouth in the O shape to say it and she puts her little hand out to do it! This past Saturday Mom and Dad took the big kids camping so we just had the twins. We went shopping and out to eat..and Mady just kept putting on a show for Tim..she was saying uh oh all weekend. We went and visited Tim's grandma and she just loved seeing the babies. I feel bad that we don't get over to see our grandparents as often as we should..I just feel like there's never enough hours in the day. I feel like just as soon as we wake up it's time to start getting ready to go back to bed.

Mikhail is getting really excited about going to school at the end of the month. I really can't believe it's almost that time. I was talking to the parents in Makenna's dance class and they thought I was crazy when I said that I would actually like to have two more babies. I feel like mine are growing up so fast that I'm really going to miss this time in my life. Life is changing so drastically for us..and I'm not ready for it. Mikhail going to school..it's sad for me. I'm going to miss all of our adventures during the week when all the kids are in school. It's only going to leave the weekends and evenings and that's when all the other families are out and about. It's nice to do things during the day when everyone is as school or work. I just wish I could go back and relive the last five years with him. I feel like it went way too fast :( His looks are changing more and more by the day too! He's starting to look so big, and sheesh just like his dad! He's a handsome little man that's for sure. His faveorite thing right now is playing video games..just like his dad. He's already (just recently) beat Call of Duty..at only five years old..I can't even play the game and he beat it!

We took them to the fair last friday. They had a blast! We let Max go on his first ride and he freaked out and we had to take him off before it was over. It was so funny too because when we walked in he pointed to everything and I thought he would love the rides..but they scared him. The kids had a blast though. I wish the fair was in the fall so the weather didn't ware you out so fast. But it makes me think about when I was little and my dad used to always take us to do fun stuff like that. I love that the kids get to do it and have so much fun <3

Makenna is my little dancer now! She's loving it! She dances at Judy Dollenmayer. She's taking Combo 1. Every tues and wed she goes and she just loves it. I love how pretty she looks in her clothes and the look on her face when I take her. It's just amazing to see her enjoying a hobby! It's def our special time every week. She's really excited about going to prek at Stoneybrook this fall. I'm not ready to let her go either. I know she's a big girl and she needs to do it...but I'm just going to miss her and Bubs so bad while they are at school :(

Well I guess that's all for right now! I'm going to try to start doing this at the end of every night again. I miss not blogging about all the cute silly things they are doing! I need to get back to that!

Big kids bed

On tuesday Max spent the whole night in his big boy bed! I'm not sure if he stayed in it or not because he woke me up in the morning crying at his door. But I put him to bed in the bottom bunk. He's always crawling out of his pack and play..so I figured he was ready for it. It's been a few days now, and he knows that that is his bed! I need to get the rest of the room put together so Mikhail can be on the top bunk now. It's so crazy. I still feel like he's my little baby, it's so hard to believe that he's sleeping in a real bed and getting ready to have a birthday in just little over a month. I figured Mady would still want to be in her pack and play for a while. But the next day I laid her down in Makenna's bed, and she slept there for her whole nap! She's sooo cute :) She will not crawl out of bed. She sits there until I come to get her. She knows that that's her bed, and she loves it! She's been sleeping in there ever since, even at night. My Mom is going to give me another bed just like it, my brothers..so that will be Makenna's bed. I really need to get the house put together and organized better. Both of those beds have drawers under them..I need to take advantage of that! I'm really loving this house :)

My Crazy kiddos!

So I sware I need to take a camera into Maddox's room with me when he's crying. He's always stuck in the craziest positions! I should make a book of all the ways he gets stuck. He gets stuck in the bunk bed ladder. The other day he was stuck between the matress and the bed. There's a cube shelf in his room that he's demolished getting stuck in so many times. The kid is crazy! Today I was trying to lay him down and he got stuck in the ladder..I got him out, shut the door and not even two minutes later..he was screaming again..I go in, and he's stuck in the ladder again? Kid is crazzzy! And when ever I tell him 'no' or he knows I'm mad at him..he gives me the sweetest kisses and cuddles..so it's impossible to be mad at him. He's just too darn cute for his own good.

Madelyn has been sleeping all day. She got up today at like 10am..wasn't even up for an hour..went back to bed..and is still there and its 235pm. She's teething really bad, and the poor girl prefers to just sleep through it. I think she's growing too. She's walking around the house all the time. Once she figured it out..she just took off with it!

Makenna I think might just be my crazziest kid out of all of them. She completely cracks me up with her..Turn this show mom..it's giving me an ear infection! She swares that when I put on a show she doesn't like it gives her an ear infection. I love the way she explains things to me. Like the other day I was trying to get her to want her ears pierced..and she freaked out and told me how much it hurts and that they put a HOLE in your blood. Lol she's so silly. She's also such a sweet pea too. She was telling me yesterday that for Mother's day she's going to pick me daisies, roses, and sunflowers, and danilions. Haha she's so sweet.

Mikhail went to safety town last week! It's crazy..I remember going when I was little. He loved it and learned some great things. That's really an awesome program for the kids. Makenna is so excited that it will be her turn to go next year. His graduation was so sweet. It made me realize how big he's getting though. I woke up that morning a little sad thinking that before I know it he'll be graduation from elementary school, then high school, and I didn't even want to think about college! I hate how fast time has to fly by..but at the same time..I really love all the new stages and phases we are getting into.

Tim, Mikhail, Makenna, and I have been making soy candles as our new family project. It is so fun and I really love it! The kids are amazed at how they turn out and that they helped me make them. We rented a table at the Creekside Farmers Market to sell our candles. Any money I get from them is going to go into other crafts and activities with the kids. It's good time that we spend together. They are going to help me sell them too!

They are really excited about the fireworks coming up this weekend. Last year they really got into them..so I'm really excited to see how they react this year :)

Safety Town

I've been wanting to write a blog like every day this week and just haven't sat down and committed to it. Life has been amazing this week. Not that it's not amazing every week. But wow, it's so good this week! Mikhail is going to Safety Town every day this week from 12-3. He absolutely loves it. I love spending all my time with him. But with him having fun at school, I get to spend some quality time with Ken and the Babies too. The other day the babies were sleeping and I had Kenny in my room and I was doing here hair and then I painted her nails and she just felt so special..it made me feel good. After I painted her nails, she wanted to paint mine..and I let her. She told me she never did that before..lol which she's right..the last time she used nail polish she painted her own nails/fingers. But she told me she needed to practice for when she's a mommy like me some day :) aww that melted my heart! She also said it was a good thing daddy wasn't home to see her doing it because he wouldn't be happy about it! She's a silly thing! Yesterday while he was in school, we went shopping and we went to the smoothie king and had a fit n crunchy bowl together which was super yummy. I just loved spending some one on one time with her. She would be a great only child. When it's just her, she never cries or throws a fit or is braty. I love having four kids..but I think Makenna was meant to be an only child! Today we woke up to a flat tire on the van. Tim had to go to court for a speeding ticket...and I didn't want Mikhail to miss Safety Town..either did he. So he rode his bike and I pushed the babies..Tim took Ken with him to court because there was no way she woulda made that walk! It was really hot and it was 3.48 miles one way..so Mikhail did that on his bike! He didn't complain once. He actually told me it was a lot of fun :) And when I picked him up [with the car] he asked if he could ride his bike home again! LoL goof ball. I did about 7 miles straight with the twins though. By the time I got home..I thought I was going to die. But honestly..it felt really good. I would love to do some long walks like that some more. It feels good to be losing weight and loving the way I look! It's been a while since I felt that. Hee hee we stopped at CVS to get Mikhail and the babes a drink...and he saw these silly bands that he just had to have..and he said that everyone on his tball team had them..and it just hit me, like my little boy is growing up! He's already at the, these are the cool thing stage, gotta have them. Wierd! These last 5 years have gone by in a flash..I hope the rest slow down a bit. Anyways, I'm super tired..so I better dip..laterzzz

growing up

The days seem to be flying by so fast lately! I just had my birthday two days ago! I'm 25! It's crazy..I feel like I just turned 21 the other day..and four years have passed :( I wish time would slow down a little. My babies are getting ready to be 2. It's so hard for me to actually admit to myself that I will never have another baby. I was going through the kids old clothes the other day and I was almost in tears when I saw the outfits the twins used to wear and how they used to be sooo big on them..or remember Mikhail and Makenna in their baby clothes and now they are four and five! I told Tim I was so sad and he said they have to grow up someday..we have to stop having kids someday. And I know he's right, but that doesn't change how I feel :( And the arguement that it gets easier the older they get doesn't really apply to me right now. Last summer was so much easier. The twins weren't walking so they would just sit in the stroller while we went places..bottles made everything better, and there were multiple naps a day. Now they are walking everywhere, they cry when we go anywhere, they rarely nap, and they want to eat allllll the time. It's just a lot more complicated this summer. I love seeing them explore new things and watching the grow. But the thought that before I know it they are going to be in school makes me sad.

Max is so sweet :) While I was sitting her typing he got up and gave Mady a bink :) He's really sweet! He is really good at sharing. Yesterday he was sooo rotten though. I came home from the pool with the big kids and I heard him SCREAMING in his room. Tim said that every time he went to get him out, Max was sitting right behind the door and everytime Tim would open it Maddox would slam the door shut. So I thought for sure that if I went up he would open the door for me..but nope! I had to sneak in past him, and when I did..he was SO mad. He hit me and threw an even bigger fit. Finally I convinced him to come out and he was fine. But lately little man has had such a big attitude!

The pool was soooo much fun with the big kids yesterday! That's how I'm going to have to take them to do things this summer..when Tim's home and is able to watch the babies I'll be able to take them out to do big kid things. But Mikhail was jumping in with NO floats! He was going under to get toys and swimming. I was so shocked! I'm so proud of him! He's such a little water bug :) Makenna is the exact opposite lol. Of course ;) She won't get her hair wet. She plays on the stairs. But she has fun and that's all that matters.

oopps just looked at the clock and it's time to get Mack ready for his tball game! More laters :)

update :)

So summer is definately not going to go as planned. Last year I was out and about all the time. Last year..the twins were NOT walking! This summer is going to be hard for the big kids. They are already crying that we don't ever go any where. And it's going to be very hard to go anywhere with the twins this summer. Maddox gave me a BIG scare at Creekside today. The kid is just so wild. He's always trying to hang on the bridge or climb something dangerous. He's like four children in one..he really is. I'm going to have to figure this out. I don't want a boring summer..I just want a SAFE summer though! We'll see!

Lately Max has been the cutest and most rotten little stinker ever! On one hand, every time he hears Mady cry he gives her a bink. Tim and I were laughing today because they remember where they are. Every time he hears her cry he just runs and gets one and then gives it to her, and then he claps because he knows it was sweet of him. Mady will clap too :) It's the cutest thing ever! And lately he's been stealing kisses from her! I want to get one on tape sooo bad! But they are always out of no where. At first it was him kissing her, but now she'll kiss back, so it's so sweet! I was getting sad because they were so lovey when they were new borns, always holding hands and snugglin..and it seemed like they were never going to be like that again. But now they are kissing and hugging on each other..it melts a Mama's heart!

He's rotten becauseeee he NEVER goes to sleep when he's supposed to. The kid won't take a nap for nothing..as soon as I walk out of the room he scales out of his pack n play like he's jackie chan :/ And at night he just screams and screams..and then he gets up in the middle of the night. That's super rough too. Last night Tim went out with his cousins..the babies were alseep, and the big kids were sleeping in my bed. I was just going to leave them there and I crawled into bed with them. When Tim got home, he put them in thier own beds and just left their doors open [because the ac is broke] but in the middle of the night I just happened to radomly wake up and Max was standing in the hall way cuddling a big blanket. He could have fallen down the stairs..I was so mad Tim didn't put up the baby gate. I sware the kid is accident prone. And then he came into my bed and kicked and hit and poked and pinched me all night long. I hardly got any sleep. And whenever he's super rotten, he kisses me..which just totally melts my heart...so I can't ever be mad about it. LOL Tim and I were laughing that he's our little Chucky doll..he's so sweet and innocent...until he moves! bahahaha! I love him bunches..but he drives me insane!

We got Madelyn and pair of Stride Rites today, and she's been walking all over the place in them :) I thought I would hate them, but I think she looks really cute in them :) She's got little chunker legs and it's adorable. Tim took the big kids to go visit thier Uncle Bryan and family, and Max actually went to sleep..so it's just been me and her. We took her grocery cart and baby doll outside and she pushed it all the way down the side walk and back! With out falling too! I'm SO proud of her! No matter what any one says about her walking, she's my tough babe :) The whole time I was pregnant with the Chubs, Max was on top of her. She held them in until she couldn't any more, and they were born so healthy! I don't mind if she needs help walking! She's so healthy, and so sweet and so strong. She's my perfect baby girl!

Speaking of perfect baby girls...my other perfect princess is amazing too! She's been so sweet talking to Jesus all the time <3 She still has her temper tantrums and can be rotten. But she's a sweet heart. I love watching her and Mikhail play. They both have amazing imaginations. And she is so absolutely beautiful! She's going to start dance class in July and I can't wait. She's my baby doll!

Mikhail is almost done with Tball. He wants to do every sport. He really wants to see the new karate kid that's coming out, and I think we are going to do karate after tball. He's so athletic just like his dad! When we were getting Mady her new shoes, Mikhail saw some that he loved..and we were talking about bringing him back for back to school shopping..and I couldn't beleive we were actually saying that. I really don't know what I'll think when my little guy starts school full time. I'll probably cry :(

Sable Girl

Tues was a really rough day for our family :( We had to go over to my Mom and Dad's and say goodbye to our childhood dog Sable. Our whole family including my kids, right down to the twins loved her so much! Every time we would go over to visit my parents, she would be hanging out on the front pourch and the kids would always run up and yell, 'Bizzle' and they would give her lots of lovins. They would always beg Mimi's to give her treats. Sable was the reason for lots of laughs and giggles. The babies loved to climb all over her and she let them. She never once nipped at them. They used to laugh and laugh at her. They really loved her too! I remember every time I would bring a new baby over to Mom's house, Sable would be so curious. She would always want to know all about the babies, and she would be very mothering and protective. If they were sitting in thier car seat, she would be right there watching over them. It was almost like she knew there was a baby in there and she had to protect them. She was a great dog!

She was getting very sick though. Tuesday she wouldn't eat or drink, she could barely even stand up. It was hard to watch her suffer like that. I hate putting dogs to sleep..but my heart was aching over her suffering. So we took the kids over Tuesday to let them love on her one last time. Mikhail and Makenna understand Heaven and that's where Sable would be going. I definately thank God for giving them that understanding that everything is ok. They made me cry so many times. Makenna kept telling me she didn't want Sable to die. And right before we left she blew her a kiss that I got a picture of :( And Mikhail told me he 'knew Sable all of his days'. I swear for being such little people, they have such big understandings of the world around them. That night we said prayers for Sable, and the kids told God how much they love her and asked him to watch over her. Mikhail said that the 'human Angels got a new pet' And they talked about how Sable would be playing with Buster and Dr. Ryan :) They are so sweet! Sable was put to rest on Wed. Mom and Brian took her. I couldn't do it. I felt like a coward for not going, but I just knew it was something my heart couldn't handle. They said the dr. gave her a shot to help her relax and she fell asleep, snoring and all..and then they put her to sleep. Mom said she just looked so peaceful like she was sleeping. I miss her so much. I will miss the sound of the kids running up the drive way calling for her and laughing. But I'm glad she's not hurting anymore. Mom had her cremated. But the kids really want to make her a grave so they can still talk to her. So we are going to decorate garden stones for her and Buster. The kids still talk to Sable. They know that she's in Heaven and that she can hear them :) They tell her they love her atleast once a day. Mikhail told us that she would wait for him up there, that someday when he was old he would go up there and play with her :) So they are helping me to feel better about it too.