Maybe blogging is good therapy??

Where can I start? Today has been a horrible of a horrible day :/

I got up this morning and was actually on my way to the gym before 930am! Hell yes! It made me feel good! I dropped the kids off in the play place..and barely got a kiss from them. I peaked in through the windows and Maddy was playing..and Makenna was chasing Max around trying to get his sticker on him. After she did..she found a little girl playing by herself and she sat down right next to her and started playing with her. Makenna looks at the world like everyone is a potential friend..and I love that! She's not shy about going up and talking to any one. I really love that about her! I also really loved that the kids didn't cry about me leaving. They like being there and they feel safe..and that makes it all worth it. I think it's really stimulating for them :) When I was in the locker room I ran into a friend I used to work with. So we ended up getting on the eliptical together and it was fun talking to someone while I worked out. When we did our 45 mins. she was going over for the weights and I decided to go check on the kids. I heard the girl say, we'll I'll just go get her since they are both crying...and I knew right away it was me she was going to get. I peak in the room and Mady is scream and Max is crying. Mady kept putting her hand on her mouth..it's her molars hurting her :/ Max is actually constapated for once in his life..and that's why he was crying. So I ran back to get my stuff out of the locker room..cm pack and BAM Mikhail is crying. I guess he got into a fight with another little boy over a toy and the other little boy bit him. They had also been getting on his case about running around the room...which you can't do with all the little ones in there. SO ya that cut my work out short :/

I brought the kids home and they wouldn't go to bed for their nap. That really pissed me off. They know that if we go to the gym they have to go to bed when we get home. Well I told them I wasn't going to feed them until they took a nap. Well bad Mommy..four o'clock rolls around and they still haven't taken a nap so I know I gotta feed them. It was all compeletely more down hill after that. They just fought and cried and were cranky. Maddox will not go to bed. He's got an ear ache of course..and there's really nothing I can do for him to make him feel better. I've tried giving him a bottle and meds and holding him and giving him his bink...and letting him cry..and really what else can I do? I'm at whits end :/

I told the kids that tomorrow is a new day. We have a new opportunity to start over and have a good day. Mady is up north visiting her family up there. I'm really sad with her not being here. When I felt so upset I thought the one thing that could really make things better would be a big bear hug from my Jea Bug. But she's so far away. I really hope she does ok. I'm worried about her and I've been crying and having anxioty about her being away. But I know that her family up there loves her and they really enjoy her visits. But I just worry about being away from her. I worry that she'll wake up in the morning and be worried that her Mommy isn't the one coming into get her. I wonder if she thinks she'll ever see me again. I just worry about her. I actually hope this week goes by fast so I can see her again!

Well thank God Tim just walked in the door. He's making Max a bottle..so hopefully Max will be ok with that and he'll go to sleep :) I don't think Tim's ok about walking in the door and seeing me on the comp. I feel like that makes me look lazy..but on the other hand he's know that I've been extremely stressed out..so he probably doesn't really mind