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So I keep waiting for this rain the weather men are talking about. Not the silly little ten minute sprinkles we get here and there..I'm waiting for a down pour! Especially at night. I love to open the windowns and the spell and sound of the rain spill through the house. It's smells so clean and feels so relaxing :) I don't want it to rain during the day when I'd rather be out and about..so come on rain..night time would be nice! I'd actually enjoy a good thunder storm right about now too.

Another thing I would enjoy is to win the lottery..yup that would be really nice. I have a million things on my wish list and I'm having a hard time deciding what ranks where in my list of priorities. I've really been LOVING reading. It's not something I've ever givin much time to. But to be able to escape this life and indulge myself in a fantasy life and expierence something through someone elses eyes is very calming. I love reading now :) But I've been having some really bad dreams about warewolves and vampires...thanks Twilight. sheesh. The next books on my list are obviously Midnight Sun, which I've started...but it's on the computer..and I'm not crazy about comp reading. Then I want to read Need and Captivate by Carie Jones and The Host too. I've been going to Half Priced Books a lot lately. I think I might start getting some things there and seeing how I like the random selection. The kids are really into the Spiderwick Cronicles. It took us like two or three days to read the first one, and they can't wait to dive into the second one I just picked up for them today. I think there's five of them. I know they'll want to read them again once they get older and can read on thier own. Plus the babies will want to read them when they get older..so it's nice to be able to build up our library. I dont' mind spending the money on them knowing they'll be going to good use multiple times. I also want to get the deceptivally good cook or whatever that books called..and they have that at half priced books too right now. I've looked at it before and I think it would be a great way to get the kids eating healthier..they wouldn't even know the stuff is in there :) bahahaha I love tricking the kids.

Right now however we are in the process of moving. So packing and cleaning and painting are taking over my life. I know I know we move almost every year. But this time I think we might stick around a little longer. We are moving into Tim's Mom's house :) I know what you are all thinking..financial problems...hardly..her mortgage is more than our rent. So we are actually paying more to live there. And she's already settled into her new apartment. We wanted to be able to send Mikhail to Chapelfield vs Royal Manor. And we needed a bigger house, so this works for us. Right now we are doing a rent to own with atleast a three year committment..but who knows, we may love it there and decide to buy it from her. The future is always up in the air and it's course can change at any given moment, so lets not get ahead of ourselves. I'm just happy to have a place to move into that we can call home for a couple years. Of course you know me and I want to paint the whole place. Not because I don't like how it's painted..just because that's what I do when I move. I want to make the palce mine and I want it to be my ideal home :) Which luckily she doesn't mind. It's just a lot of work. I also want it to be very organized. Tim and I have a lot of ideas about how we'll accomplish that, we just need to put the ideas to really good use! But ya, so that's what life is about these days.

Today we decided that we wanted to go to COSI. I wanted to go see grossology.. and I really want to take the kids to see a movie on the extreme screen. Dolphins and whales especially! Ohh and Titanic of course..but we get there and the lines we just so long to even park..and you know Tim and I...I'm not waiting and tyring to push my way through the crowd...we'll just go on a day when the kids are in school! But we decided to go to Polaris to spend some family time. We actually had a really good time despite Makenna's horrible attitude when we first got there. Of course she was throwing a fit for no reason at all..and Tim was getting him and I food and I was trying to set thier food up for them..and she's throwing a fit..so I was ignoring her..because I'm not going to bed her to keep her voice down, and when she's acting like that, I'm not going to give into what she wants..becuase she'll just always act like that. A lady stopped me to ask if I needed help...lol and while I know it was coming from the heart and a good place. I don't need help. These are my kids.. I know how to handle them and I'm not going to give into fit throwing. It ended up Tim having to take Makenna out side to have a good talk with him. When she came in she said sorry to me and I knew she meant it and that was the last of her attitude for the day. People stare at us all the time when we are out in public..and sometimes it bothers me..and then I just try to remember that when they think I'm crazy...they are just really realizing that they can't do what I can..so they should feel bad for themselves, not me. The fit throwing, fitting, crying..whatever..it's all part of being a parent..and if you can't handle it, you don't have a place being a parent. I handle it the way I know how..and that's why we make it through day to day. I don't want any one to pitty me..that's not what I ask for at all. Yes my life is hard, but this is the path I've chosen..and I wouldn't go back for a second and chose a different path. That saticfation makes me happy. I just wish people didn't stare so much. It's really annoying. I know a lot of people are curious about our lives. And that's ok, I don't mind...that's why I like to blog...I like to share our expierences with other people.

Anyways, I know this is a much different kind of blog than I'm used to posting..but I jsut had a lot on my mind today. I've been feeling a little stressed out lately..and blogging theraphy seems to work pretty well. I get it all wrote out and then I realize that the things that are stressing me aren't really worth all the fret. I just can't wait until we are settled into the new house..and that part of the stress and worry is gone!

Hmm well I'm thinking this rantish blogging thing I've just typed out is enough for the night. It's only 10..and no storms yet..but who knows I might get soem tonight. I'm going to open the bedroom window and put some clean sheets on the bed and just call it a night..nothing better than a peacefull relaxing night. I think tomorrow I'm spending the day with mom and maybe the girls..so that should be a fun...get away from the stress kind of day :)